Tuesday, October 25, 2005
i thought i got my life under control you know...but dont i planned a study timetable and everything but now with only 12 days left to my exams i havent done ANY studying at all..and no im not exagerating, i really mean what i say. and its not like i know what the uits are about, cos i dont...why? oh simple, i havent been to lectures. i dont go to uni. if i am in uni, im meeting friends or going to the tav. text books are expensive, transport is expensive, food is expensive...and i pay for it all by myself! i dont get allowance...i shouldnt complain cos i know the situation my family is in...but its not making my lfie any easier. ive been forced to suddenly be a real adult with responsibilities. yes i do admit i was spoilt to some extent but no, not anymore. i have no choice but to work. i have to go to uni as well which isnt easy. i have to be supportive for my mum cos shes emotionally unstable. my brother is probably going to get thrown into jail for speeding and drag racing haha....and so theres me, trying to keep our world from falling apart.
i know there are people who have found out about my blog which is why, till now i have tried very hard from going into anythong oo personal. but honestly, i dont give a fuck anymore. judge me if you want...i dont care...
anyway...deepavali is round the corner so i gotta but new clothes...so today i went out and bought 7 tops!! im pretty happy with my buy..came to a total of $87! the other day i bought a pair of shoes...i LOVE them..they were only $25!! but ive already worn them so they cant be used for deepavali...now i wanna but a pair of jeans, a pair fo black shorts for clubbing, a pair of pointy shoes(white), and a pair of closed toe slip on's! i only get $150 from my grandma and gradpa for deepavali, so the rest i gotta pay myself, which is fine...ive gotten use to it! but to see the money in my bank account drop is just so painful!!!!
oh god i was suppose to have listened to 10 lectures and read 6 chapters by today...but since yesterday, ive only read 1 chapter, and listened to 1 lecture...im pretty screwed! and this is only for ONE unit!!! im dead.
gotta go to sean's graduation dinner on friday..since my dads not here, i gotta go with my mum in her place...oh god, what the fuck do i wear!!
i think its time for another break down session...a shot of tequila, 2 beers and *****......that was what happened saturday night...i even called neeta, that helped a lot! right i gotta go pray..and then try and do some work...
*cassie* ♥
6:47 PM
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