when life hands u lemons, ask for tequila 'n' salt

2006-05-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

as usual its taken me forever to put in a blog entry...

sometimes i wonder if i was a good enough friend? if i was, wouldnt they have made more of an effort to stay in touch? wouldnt i have received some form of acknowledgement that we were once friends or that i still exist in their lives? but then, have i made that much of an effort? sure i say the occasional hello on msn..but wat have i really done to maintan the close friendship? but do i have to make all the effort? why cant they say the first hello online? friendship is two way traffic. im the sort of person who needs to see ana ttempt being made in order to respond. sur ei understand everyone has their own lives but i see other situations with other friends who have gone overseas and they still remain as close as ever..even friends whom ive met here who are international students. it seems like ive faded out of the picture. doe sit bother me? sure it does..when i get into moods like this. but who wouldnt? you think your a close enough friend but then it gets thrown back in your face.

you talk to people online...they seem escitd to talk to you. they claim to miss you...but is it real? or is it just soemthing we all feel obliged to say but holds no real meaning? i can tell when i see other converse that tehy mean it. but then with me it seems somewhat hypocitical. im not referring to any instance in particular, nor any specific friend. but its just suddenly dawned on me. te one time i have a moment to myself where im not online, not running around uni, not juggling 2 jobs and i wonder if i really had friends. were they actually friends? if they were then why am i the only one who has moved on that has found it difficult to keep connections?

i know im too blame..im caught up with my life here. i cant even remember when ive had ME time...i have great mates over here. people whom im trust my life with it. maybe thast why its been harder to keep in touch...but that cant be it, it doenst make sense. one good thing though..my best friend in the entire world is coming to perth! neeta i cant wait to see you! im sur ehanita can keep you and nisha occuppied till the 23rd whch is when i finish my exams!! omg exams are here....2 weeks to go..im screwed..ive had too many distractions of late!

hmm right i dont even know if people would bother reading this blog anymore, let alone this LONG post..but in case ya'll are interested in my life (though not very eventful haha) i shall give an update!

first things first, if anyone would like to help me change my blog skin again to maybe something a bit more dark thatd be appreciated!

so..whats been happening???

my dads back! things with you know what are still up in the air and a great cause of stress for my entire family but i try not to think about it. i drown myself in other things like work and uni and alcohol! yes im a bordering alcoholic..so much so that with a hangover yesterday i still went to a sunday session at the cott and didnt go home...crashed at AJs house and went to uni this morning!

we had bens farewell get together at the cott. hes going back to france! his exchange trip is over! im gonna miss that little frenchie! but it was so nice..it was us, the beach, dolphins swimming in the shallows and the most vibrant sunset you could imagine. it was peaceful. in that moment all my troubles vanished..only to come crashing back today. didnt bother me yest cos after the beach went to the cott for drinks!

i love going out with guys..it was me and 5 guys..and cos of that i didnt have a single guy hit on me or feel me up or anything! it was great! (im in an anti guy rant at the moment cos of all the crap i deal with doing promo work) moving on..i had such a good time!

only down side of last night was watching chris get drunk. chris is a pretty good friend. half german half cambodian. despite my superficiality ive liked him since i met him. theres just something you cant explain. 17 days ago we finally hooked up at my talent laid tri law party. but what do i do? i push him away...i cant get over my fear of risking a freindship. i say its my superficiality but with chirs i dont care. he makes me smile. he gives me warm fuzzys. its actually me being too afraid. we had a talk. we decided to remain friends. he said he'll be waiting...

my excuse to him, matt. cos im an idiot, at the same tri law show..i hooked up with matt as well. matt is this guy which i use to think was hot but im sooo wrong...my perception of guys has been wacked as of late! but anyway...matt became my "what if" guy. hes tall, hes got green eyes, carly thinks hes hot, he does law at uwa, he likes me..one prob, hes younger than me..and by a lot! but how could i start going out with chris if i had matt looming in my thoughts..itd be emotionally cheating. i needed to see if something would happen with matt and i. which is what i told chris. and he didnt care...he told me he'd wait..grrrr

sat night it became official. matt's my boyfriend i think..tho im not sure. cos sat night he as like "will you go out with me..as in dating" and iw as like ok sure..but then he smsed his friend hed been staying at the para longer with his gf. so i asked if we were dating or im his gf and he said gf. but i dunno. its weird. whatever it is, im off the market again haha. what about chris? he is my friend whom i have feelings for. last night i had to tell chris about matt and i. he drank himself into a stupor. had to try and get him to bed and i was the ony one he'd listen to. but he was so cute...he gets so silly and childish when hes drunk. makes me smile thinking about it. dont think me looking after him helped him much...he said that he knows i like him and he knows i have to get my "what if" guy outta my system and he doesn care....why does he make it harder! gawd idiot!

so now, here i am...happy to be with matt but inside confused about chris. so am i now emotionally cheating on matt? oh to make my life even more interesting....ben (the frenchie) declared that hes liked me for a while. great for me. too bad hes leaving on thurs, id love to french kiss and french guy. then theres jeremy whom is hot but short and i met while working. and kim whom i met last wed. and tim who is coming back from kal. but like i declare the last 3 dont count! its like when your looking for a specifc pair of shoes and you cant find them anywhere. you finally find them and next thing you know every shoe shop in town is selling them! ive had my dry spots with guys for far too long and the min you find one you get more than you asked for. its like what happened when i first starting seeing ryan.

boys=trouble but despite that im gonna be jesso's pimp on wed and hook her up...we're gonna get "MESSED THE FUCK UP" an go to uni still drunk on thurs. one last night out with the girls before i crash and burn for my exam! i gotta study....and not with matt cos that may be a distraction haha!

god theres so many other things going on in my life. so many funny uni stories to tell. weird nights out with my mates. eagles winning. liverpool winning. world cup coming up. my stalking mission. my *****ing ** mission- cant say online in case it gets used against me in court haha! so much has happenend. i love uni life. i lov work. i love the social events. but this blog is too long. wouldnt wanna bore anyone with more details. till next time!

2006-04-25T15:13:00.000+08:00

hey people...so once again its been forever since ive updated my blog. same reason as before..im a lazy bitch haha. its a cold rainy autumn day here. its ANZAC day and so we got the day off..so im sitting at home listening to kelly clarkson cos she makes me feel better..i should be studyin but haha when do i ever study??

well its been abt 8 weeks now since dad went back to singapore and carly has been living with me. but hes back on monday to settle evrything then i think hes moving to new zealand then i'll be living by myself for real!!! i should be able to afford it since i have a job at liquorland, a job doing promotions in clubs and a job doing promotions at the vacation club i use to work for! only thing i gotta do now, is drive. and since i have a massive phobia it could prove to be a problem!

well im sure most of you know that i am single again. ryan was a cunt haha....but yea had a date with tim on friday which was really good! but he lost his keys! left it at the restaurant and only realised it after the movie when the place had closed! and since he lives north of the river he stayed at my place! but dont worry people, nothing happened!!!! he slept in my room and carly and i slept together in sean's room where carly has been stayin! but i had a really good time.....dinner and a movie is always the best way to go! met him on wed when i was at carnegies with jess, jasmyn, stace, nads and chelsea! too bad he lives in kal(the country) cos he's doing his final year in mining and has to be near the mines!

we had a 1 week study break which i didnt use very wisely..instead i went out and got plastered on sat- where i met a pom called john, monday- where there was a water bomb law faculty fight a suburb near me and then the after party at brando's house..and then wed night at carnegies

i did promo work at harbourside on thursday for tequila! that was fun work! i mean i get paid to walk arnd looking hot, talkin to guys, flirting with them and getting them to buy tequila shots! of course i couldnt drink but i was tipsy when i got to work cos i was at a law dinenr before that! had to pretend to be sober in front of the boss! eekss!! but oh that was fun! and then worked at a bottle shop on sat doin promo again and then at a pub in freo for a sunday session selling vodka...the new premix vodka drink by absolut! its really yummy! yea and after work i danced a bit and someone else asked for my number....ego boost! and i got a drink bought for me! doing promo work again on friday in subi for canadian club..and like theres a game the guys can play to win prizes too so its all gd! maybe go out after work! only thing is i have to wear this skimpy top......but thats not very different to how id dress to go out on sat! hee

only bad thing was, i was sick from friday onwards..so i was sick for my date, sick for work on sat, sick for work on sunday...had a 30% torts assignment due in at 12 on monday and so stayed up the entire night doing it. went for kfc after i handed the assignment in with stace and carly to treat ourselves and went home to sleeeppp! gd thing for the public holiday today! jesso might come over later to watch movies and have a piss up! hehehe...my liver will eventually fail on me i reckon!

oooo i forgot to pay special mention to the West Coast Eagles who have gone undefeated.....we are so gonna get into the AFL grand final again this year! and this time, we're gonna win! go the eagles!!!! booo to every other team!!

man this is a long post...but yea i better mention that my house got broken into a couple of weeks back! i wasnt home cos i was at the prosh after party! but carly was..she didnt hear anything cos she was dead tired after being up since 2am for prosh! but yea they didnt take much..just some money, jewellery and a handphone which were on the ground floor! lucky us hey! now we have a fancy security system..well its just improved cos we have little panic buttons attached to our keys now! oh and i got a street drinking fine the sat before that..but man it was from the HOTTEST guy i have ever seen in my life..im not including celebrities and stuff..though hes about as hot as jensen ackles in supernatural! like omg he was so hot! i dont usually say guys are REALLY hot but he was like a million out of 10 on my scale..he was my dreamboat! oh shit! i havent paid it yet! crap!

oh this is a picture from prosh where i dressed up as a slutty cop and sold my newspapers for charity! all those other girls were hanitas friends..i only knew carly and stacey! carly was the slutty nun and stacey was the indian goddess! at the after party

and this one is the picture from the roller disco! doesnt that skinny guy, james, look like an alien? and like tom was so drunk when we took that..the other gals are hanita(from singappore on exchange), bec, claire, nads, carly and of course me! thought i should include them since i never have pictures on my blog! too bad i dont have more..i really should take pictures of all of us when we got out..

2006-03-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

id like to state for the record that i am officially...FAT!!! ive gained so much weight since carly moved in..plus excessive alcohol consumption does add a few pounds...and i havent been to the gym in ages!! just great....

anyway...my hollywood moment has turned into an indian bollywood soap opera! mainly cos i overreact and over think everything....but meh its a long story and basically ryan thinks im an idiot..but hey he accepts me for it haha!

ok so i have a tiny problem. i cant remember what happened at dan's party last night. and neither can carly. and dan wont answer the smses so im afraid i might have done something and yea im screwed! like i remember the first part of the night and then after that i dont recall anything! like this has never happened! sure ive had nights i remember bits and pieces and have flashbacks but this time my mind is completely blank! i woke up today..at dan's place cos we stayed over..and i was like..wtf happened last night..im kinda worried hey!

but yea im being a good girl and stayin home tonight despite it being a sat...well the only reason is cos im too broke to go out..but i wanna go cos ryan will be at the para too! *sob sob*...well thats ok, i might see him tomorrow if hes not too hung over!

wish i was at law camp..but i guess theres not much point goin cos i cant hook up! but im so going next year! like 80bucks, 3 days 2 nights...free flow alcohol and food..and like the best parties at nanga bush camp! grrr i hsould have gone...i even missed the dress to get laid party in uni last night cos of dans house party! damn you dan!! haha! oh i must explain..the "dress to get laid" party is basically where you dress like skanks..drink yourself silly and hook up! dont you love uni events! and i missed it! but again i cant hook up! gawd idiot! im not use to this whole relationship thingy!

im so dying in law hey...like arts was so easy and now im in first yr law but like im doing second yr units too! so im dying......but i see james marzak and eurasian james everywhere now...i love doing law just cos the guys are so damn hot! but oh me oh my..theres this one guy i keep seeing and he really pushes my buttons hey.....yummy....for some reason uni is like the best sausage fest ever this year! sooo much talent!!! hehehe....but yea besides the guys in law, im loving crim law!

oh yea i almost forgot! remember roller disco and i said thsi guy james was tryin to pash me the entire night..well james is like nerdy and whatever, im a superficial bitch..why ould i pash him? especially since im seeing ryan..but ANYWAY, he has told all his mates which are my mates as well that he hooked up with me !like omg wtf!! now people would think i pahed him! argh this is so bad..sure if he was hot i wouldnt care but hes not!!!! and i tell ryan right and he doesnt even care!!!

oh oh oh and worse..im being sexually harrassed at my guild cafe! recall fernando? the guy who like tried pashing me some sat night a few weeks back..well he smsed me the next day right askin to go out and im like oh i have a bf..basically tellin him to fuck off! but like now when i see him in uni...when i go to buy my wedges at the guild, he blows me LOUD kisses in front of EVERYONE!! he gives me and my friends more food so i tolerate it but like the other day he sends me this message and it went something along the lines of "im sorry but i really must tell you your hot and lucky your boyfriend"...like WTF!!!!! plus that day i was wearing the crappiest clothes...and i love hangin out at the guild but cos of him its so uncomfy! and again, i tell ryan and he like doenst care...you know what he said! i cld kill him..he was like "your hot, what do you expect" like hello!! go beat him up or smth!!! yea so argh the story of my life....sheesh

i got a job! im a promo girl in clubs for like different types of alcohol and stuff! oh and i went for an interview to work as a bar staff at metro city..biggest club in perth! which means id work night shifts..itd cut down my social life but hey its good pay if i get the job!

ok this is a massively long post..only cos i dont update it regularly! anyway, catch ya'll online!

2006-03-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

well its been a while hasnt it? my blog has become dead. ive just been too busy to type a post. plus nothing much has happened. well nothing of real interest to you guys anyway...

sometimes i dont get girls. we wan a nice decent guy and when we find one we wonder whats wrong with him when he hasnt even pashed you after 3 dates. we start thinking hes gay or weird or something. and we find it so hard to blieve that he may actually be a nice guy. like i was sceptical about ryan..like you tell me that you really like me. you text me after i drunk dial you tellin me not to hook up with another guy. but you dont pash me. guys just like girls are so hard to get. but haha i invited him to finner at my place on wed cos dad's outta town. he was suppose to be over by 7 but i got home from uni at 630 and had to throw togetehr a very quick dinner. but ye ai told him to take his time so he got here at about 730 instead. but oh my god...carly is living with me for now right and so he knew shed be here..but then stacey and jess show up as well haha!! but strangely enough it turned out good. they went to watch house giving us some time..but we joined then after a bit. stace and jess are fantastic girls hey..they left at about 915..and then carly, making it obvious, went to bed at 930 so we could actually have out date! but all drama with ryan and not knowing wat i was to him sorta ended..i never thought id get a scene from a movie in my life..but this is how it went...

he had to leave at about 1130 cos he had work..he refused to get off my bed though cos he wanted to sleep..so i kicked him off and walked him to his car..and he refused to get in..so i was like "are we just gonna stand here for 10 min or you gonna leave?" and he was like.."im leaving but not before i kiss you..." and the rest is history..i get all girly just thinking of it! i got my hollywood scene!

haha but yea im such a fuck-head...went out last night and sent him drunk smses..i bet he hates me now although im his date for his cricket black tie party tmr night! ive known him for 3 weeks and like last week itself i drunk called him 3 nights in 1 week!!! (yes i get very drunk very often now..i cant help it, there are so many uni parties to go for!)and i think carly called him but yea i dunno what he or she said..i was too drunk to care!

oh my god roller disco was fantastic last night!!! we all dressed up in our 1970s gear and headed to uni to catch the bus from the tav to the roller rink! so by the time we get there everyone is sooooo drunk cos we were drinking in the bus, had the lights on and 1970s music blasting and everyone just jamming to the music! so i havent used skates since i was 10, i only know how to blade but blades cost 3bucks and skates are free! so heres a mental image for you.....hundreads of drunk people on roller skates falling down all over the place! i woke up today bruised and battered, and i think ive sprained my wrist! but oh my god it was soo much fun..exactly like what you see in That 70s Show! apparently tom and james were tryin to pash me the entire night but i dont remember much hey....i was drunk by 8pm cos it started at 7pm..and passed out in carlys car by 11pm!!! wat a record!!! haha...poor carly couldnt drink cos she had to drive and had work today! but oh my god, nads, bec, claire, hanita and i were off our faces and tryin to skate!! too bad i dont have pictures!! you should have seen how we were dressed!!

random thought...
when you seem to be seeing a guy, suddenly every guy seems to want to get with you but when your single and free your unnoticed! its so weird hey! like last wed nihar says he loves me and always has..then on fri at the law courtyard show james marzak(my ex-crush) says he used to like me but thought i didnt like him..this isnt including the guys in the clubs! like what the fuck is going on! now that ryan has specifially told me he "hopes i wont hook up with other guys" cos he "really likes me" i have my choice and i cant take! i sound so full of myself hey but yea this is my blog and this is whats happening! god i hope ryan denst hate me..cos i really like him!

jess and carly hadnt met ryan till wed, only saw a pic of him..and so yea they agreed with me he isnt that hot..but apparently that pic didnt do him justice cos they think hes hot..but i mean how much more of an aussie guy could i get hey..blondish/brown hair, lives by the beach, surfs a bit, plays cricket and footy and drives a freaking holden! geeezz...but yea hes an accountant...hah-boring!

arghhhh ive missed my first 2 contract law lectures-which i have to listen to!! and ive got a ton of reading to do for torts cos i didnt do last weeks so thats 2 weeks of work to do! and plus i have legal process readings! and on top of that i need my criminal law books to do readings for mondays class and i dont have them!! im so screwed hey! and like i should be doing it now but im so tired after last night! and i got dinner at tara's place tongiht..another party..gosh..and then tmr ryans ball...help!!!!! i need to get my priorities straight! and i have to find a job!!! i need money! i have 17 dollars to my name!

right im gonna cook lunch now! till next time people!

ps. i hope my dad takes the job in nz cos i love living alone with carly! but i will miss him! but no parents around, wow!!!!

2006-02-19T17:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NAT!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NAT!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOOO FERNANDINO...............
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope ya have a great day hun! all the best and omg i cant believe your 20! your not a TEEN!!! heheheeh welcome to the club!! hope ya got ya e-card!

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i'm in love with Dale Begg-Smith! he's the moguls olympic gold medalist! he was canadian but he's represented australia the past 3 years! and im in love with him! he's so quiet and hot and talented and at 13 he started an internet company and over the past few years it has become a multi-million dollar business! and he's only 21!! he's my age!! but sad to say, he has a hot, cute little blond girfriends...bah!

anyway...im back in perth!! had a HUGE night out last night...met jess's other friends...but in the end jess never made it out...she passed out before we left for the club haha! so the rest of us went out together!! i even left my id at home so my mate who had downed 2 botles of wine drove me all the way home..which is very far! thank god we didnt get stopped by a booze bus! haha drink driving is very bad but hey im still in one piece lol! i need carbs..im so hungry and hungover....

gotta go to uni on tue to register my law units!! but first, meeting tara tomorrow for lunch..still havent seen nads or carly yet..better make plans with them! and i gotta get a job!

miss you guys in singapore heaps!! love ya'll! thanks for coming to the airport!!! oh and marcus, thank you sooo much for sending me a Vday card!!! it was here when i arrived and i wnated to sms ya but i dont have ya number so text me k! THANK YOU!! it was so sweet....ive never gotten a valentine card before...!!!

oh well im off to cook something starchy and fattening!!

2006-02-01T14:12:00.000+08:00

well its been a while...and i know my blogs become dead cos ive been too lazy to blog about anything..its not like nothing interesting has happened but with a computer that moves slower than the council one in reynolds office it sunderstandable why i refuse to gte online..anyway the new computer will arrive within the week thank heavens!

oh by the way, just in case you didnt know by now, my handphone was stolen like 3 weeks back and so ive lost everyones phone numbers..so if i havent been keeping in touch i apologise. i only have the numbers of people who have messaged me so drop me a message so i can save your number...havent seen a lot of peeople in ages so we should totally meet up soon ok!

saw divya the other day which was fabulous! i havent seen her for like 3 years!!! talked about everything..shes been studying in teh states..lucky her! oh and ive decided that im gonna go on a student exchange to the states..so im either gonna go to UCLA or McGill....i just have sort out expenses and things...

well im gettin lazy again..so im off! ta!

2006-01-03T00:57:00.000+08:00

2006.

well id like to say that 2006 started out perfect! but sad to say, it was the worse countdown/ night/ day of my life. reason for this i cannot say for it is not my story to tell. the year may have started in tears but now its time to balance it out so im gonna be optimistic and say that the rest of the year is gonna be a pretty good one!

despite all the drama and worry of that day though, i found out something about myself. it may be thick skinned to say but still...im actually a really good friend. now recently ive drifted further apart from most of my friends as compared to the distance when i was in australia so many may seriously disagree with me. if you do, tell me..i'll take it as constructive criticism. ive always been a good listener and if you want me to be a friend, and your a friend, then i'll be one. but hurt me, and well thats that. im not tryin to push them away but maybe people are mad at me or maybe they dont like the changes in me. nonetheless, when my friend needed me the most, i was there. i was stubborn and for that im proud of myself.

2005 was actually a pretty good year for me personally. sure it wasnt great for my family as a whole but lookin back, im happy with it cos all i remember are the fun times. i reckon 2006 will be the same or better! when i finally go back home, i have secure friendships to return to. people who actually missed me and a whole lotta fun waiting for my return. haha

its weird but in that instant, my life became clear. i feel mature. i feel fresh. kinda lame? well so what? im goin home soon. im gonna miss a few people A LOT and others, not so much cos they havent really made my trip back enjoyable. although some did bring clarity and the realisation of what a true friend is. im gonna miss my mum cos she has to work in singapore now. im gonna miss my brother so so much cos he'll be in NS. but, 2006 is a new year and i dont want to dwell on what depresses me. i dont want to feel sorry for myself. i wanna learn from every single bad or good experience i have.

what i ask myself are me new years resolutions? well..apart from losing like at LEAST 8-10 kilos lol, i wanna

1. be a better friend
2. enjoy life, and not dwell on the bad
3. stop being melodramatic (unless its in a funny way)
4. get at least 2 jobs
5. study way way way harder (that includes partying harder too)
6. save up enough for my 21st bday and a trip to thailand with my mates (hopefully)
7. take up dancing classes
8. be me, and not regret being me.

happy new year guys! here's to friends, family, and partying hard!

ps. NEVER GO TO MOS....i will never ever ever patronise that club again till the day you say you will too. love ya darl!

2005-12-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

well my birthday has come and gone and its time to finally admit my age.....im argh 20 years old....eeekkkkss!!!!! thats 2 decades!!! thanks for reminding me kit...lol

anyway, id like to thank a whole lotta people! nurul, naweera, shafi, jaren, chee wei, roy, wei qi, marcus, shah and shi wei, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! that whole surprise thing was really sweet and meant a lot to me..all i can do is apologise for what happened...i know we were all meant to hang out till the sun rose and everything but that didnt happen cos i had other friends there..

i felt really bad for what happened cos i was neglecting you guys after all you planned but thing is, i didnt know we were meeting up till the day before and i had already promised my other friends id be meeting them on birthday! so then i figured i would be having dinner with you guys and then meet them at the beach...little did i know you guys had something else planned...so im sorry! i hope ya dont think i was ungrateful or anything cos i really was! it meant more than the presents i got!

for the record, we were not sitting there getting drunk, but merely having yummy baileys to drink...i remanined sober the entire time!

so my brithday was weird in a way cos i felt like crap, shuffling between 2 groups of friends who refused to mix with each other but really nice cos i actually had friends to share it with! it was a very up and down emotional day but one person in particular really made it horrible..but its ok i understand why...

besides, i spent my 20th very maturely, i climbed a fence in a mini skirt at 3.30am, then snuck into the pool are, went swimming, played "I have Never" and "truth or dare" and then went to maccas for brekkie..very mature indeed!

2005-12-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

with a lot of free time on ya hands, it gives ya plenty of time to think...recently ive been thinkin a lot about the terms best friends and things like that..in my opinion, people use it too loosely. when i think of a best friend, i think of someone whom i would whole heartedly trust my life to..most people say that you cant have more than one best friend....i disagree..although in my case i do only have one best friend. it takes both parties to make a friendship work but even if one looses contact, it shouldnt matter.

a friend of mine once said that she doesnt believe the whole friends forever thing..i guess she's right..i mean you can try your best to make it last but sometimes distance, opposing views, or just changing personalities get in the way..

yea well this whole friendship issue was also brought about by neeta (my best friend)...its a strange sorta friendship based on out drinkin abilities but its still a friendship nonetheless.

its been a weird day. im kinda hurt by something. but then im also overwhelmed by the amount of love i saw from my grandpa today and his pride..its really family that matters after all.

oh thanks for the birthday blogpost nat.

im not sleepy but theres nothing else to do now.

oh my god i hate this person ive turned into recently!! i miss being me! i miss feeling alive! i miss being HAPPY HAPPY! ive become this self-pitying, depressed, moddy, grumpy, self-loathing, whiny person! and i hate people like that and now im like that! i just need to talk to someone who knows how this feels! just need to talk..im a social person, im not the sort who just keeps everything inside anymore....argggghhhhhh! you see im doing it again! im feeling all sorry and upset and im complaining!!! and now im complaining that im complaining..and this can go on and on...so i shall stop but you get what i mean!

2005-12-12T22:00:00.000+08:00

I PASSED EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!

ok sure i didnt do THAT well but still, i passed everything!!! i even got TWO distinctions!! IM SOOOOO HAPPY...ok i know its silly but i actually started crying cos i was so happy........so if my calculations are right, i have a 5.26 GPA which isnt wonderful but hey i still think its pretty darn good! like seriously oh my god i was so sure i was going to fail 2 of my units, and i actually passed! and like distinctions for Philosophy and Anthropology/Sociology is like FANTASTIC!!

do you realise what this means?? i might have a very slight chance of getting into law/psychology double degree....i mean its not entirely over..all i can do is hope and pray now! woah...ive never been happier..its been a long time since ive been truly happy...I NEED TO GO OUT AND CELEBRATE!!!

hehehehe...yay!!! ooo and my birthday is like 6 days away!!! oh my god im running outta time to be a TEEN!!! and i dont even know how im gonna celebrate it...any ideas?? im too happy now to really care..

oh damn i still need a job.....um guys, please dont expect christmas prezzies from me..they may come VERY late cos im SO BROKE!!!! i dont expect anything from you guys either ok...so dont get me a gift or i'll feel guilty!!!

2 DISTINCTIONS and an all round pass!!!! wheeeeeeeeeeeee

oh and a point to make...i think its brilliant how ladies get free flow of evrything, including tequila on wed nights at o bar...too bad this week im heading to zouk..argh...

2005-12-05T23:13:00.000+08:00

ok funny story to tell her...more like a my friends are completely mental story to tell but nonetheless....

so remember josh? if ya dont, thats alright....hes just some guy i went on one date on, then he called, and we were suppose to meet up again but that didnt happen and i never heard back from him and now im in singapore so i cant stalk him and kill him..haha im just kidding...anyway, hes the type of guy who goes to the paramount (a club in perth) every saturday, just like i do..but the couple of week before i left and after i went out with him he never showed up on saturday nights so obviously he was avoiding the place and a confrontation hehehe...

seeing as hes a paramounter my friend sand i knew he couldnt bear stayin away much longer but the bad part was, i would be leavin so jess and satcey promptly volunteered to stab out at him for my sake if they saw him. ons aturday night, i received a message from jess, they were gettin dolled up to go out and said they miss me (hehe ego boost), jess then mentioned that if she saw josh, she'd "smash a bottle over his head".

sunday morning i receive another sms from jess. they did see josh. and guess what? stacey yelled at him, calling him a homo and then they both decided to throw their drinks/ glasses at him ( after finishing the alcohol of course cos you cant waste booze)....i havent yet heard what his reaction was but...haha i love my friends..in their defence, they were pretty drunk..tho i hope they didnt hurt him. oh but they did rub it in that he looked very "sexual" (jess' substitute word for "hot") that night...

well at least i had a great time on saturday night too...

2005-12-02T17:25:00.000+08:00

16 days left of me being a teenager...i turn 20 very soon..and guess what? im spending my last days as a teen sitting around at home staring at the ceiling, posting mail for my mum, flicking through the tv channels, and wondering why i feel so lonely.

so im back in singapore..im glad to be back, its nice seeing all my friends but...i dunno..im depressed, im upset, im hurt, im alone...i gotta thank shafi so much for coming to the airport...it meant soo much to me..i understand that everyone has work and they would have come if they could but not everyone had work did they? i was sad. i mean...i havent been back for about a year and thats the reception i get....think it feels good? it doesnt.

i dont get smses asking to go out and hang out maybe after work or over the weekend or anything..like i said, the hype was the first 3 days when i got here. now...now im all by myself.

i hate to say it but im dreading having to stay here another 2 mths or so..i cant take it. i hope it doesnt offend anyone..but can you blame me? it doesnt seem like i actually have FRIENDS here...its my nightmare come true..i said way back that i was worried that when i came back things would be different, people wouldnt be as glad to see me as i was to see them...and i was right. friendship really doesnt last forever.

i mean, i really do understand that people have work and everyone here has their own lives but all i was asking was to maybe at least pretend to be excited..make some form of attempt to want to meet up...and i mean, meet up more than once..sure i gotta make the effort too but theres only so much i can do.

im having the worse time of my life...i walk aroound the house dead and expressionless...i put a force smile on. its silly i know..but thats cos you dont understand..you dont understand how it feels like. maybe im being unreasonable but the only reason i came back was to see my friends. and i dont seem to be seeing my friends.

guys in perth..i miss you guys so much..i want my old job back, i want my life back..i have to get a job here if i intend to survive another 2 months..wish i could have my birthday in perth where i know my friends will be there..its silly cos im always so close to tears here. im suppose to be happy here...singapore is suppose to be home but no, i want to go HOME.

i cant believe this is what i came back to. mum just said i deserve what im gettin but why? i dont understand...I HATE THIS!! im bored..im broke..im lonely..I HATE THIS! HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!

to top it all off, i finally accepted that ive lost a best friend..and now, we're just friends..but hey thats what life serves us and thats what i have to accept...

im gonna have a great birthday, and i bet an even better christmas..oh yay, i cant wait.

im very tempted to delete this post cos it sounds so pathetic...but fuck it, i dont care anymore. its my blog, its my thoughts.

2005-11-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

so just got back from watching "in her shoes"..yea i noe its been out for a really long time...but hey ive had exams! anyway, my dream is to own that many shoes! i love shoes!! LOVEEEEE shoes! ok ye aim on a natural high right now cos the day is finally here.....tonight (sat night) is finally here! its gonna be THE BEST! carly, jess, stace and me...gonna hit northbridge once again! FULL SWING! hmm maybe i shld FINALLy get some pics of all of us....show everyone how my insane friends look like...maybe get some hottie to take one with us....but i'll have to use my phone which isnt exactly the best camera....lalalala sat is finally here! god damn i realised today im gonna miss the end of uni groove party! im gonna be missin out on so much talent! ok ppl seriously, tell me what u want from aus...cos i refuse to buy stupi little gifts which have "i love aus" written on them....and if i cant think of anything i wont buy anything! so tell me quick! time is of the essence! plus i need to spend money on u guys before i blow it all on booze! ok off to bed i must go co si have work at 10am! which means i have to wake up at 645am...to leave the house by 715am to get to work which is north of the river ( ilive south of the river)...oh ye ai never said...i live in a suburb..i do NOT live in PERTH city itself....okie dokes off i go! ta!

2005-11-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

ive been dumped! oh the pain in my heart! hahahahhaa.....yea dumped after one date....im kinda impressed with myself, i scared a guy off in just haf a day! hehe...see we went out friday..everything went well..or so i thought, he said hed call monday after my exam but didnt..he called wed instead....said he might rock up to northbridge but then he didnt...but said he'd call sunday and then he didnt...so i smsed him..and surprise surprise, no reply!! haha..its kinda funny actually..sure i liked the guy but hey thats the way the cookie crumbles...i JUST deleted his number...evil josh...die die die.......but hey at least i met ben on sat night...but hes like 28....no thank you, thats too old! lol!

so lets see....exams are sooo over! then im back in singapore...so when am i back? lets see....maybe i shouldnt tell ya and just show up in singapore...think thats a gd idea? i think so! im gonna fail at least 2 units...but i dont care..all i can think about is how great this sat night is gonna be! and im goin out wed...and thurs..and maybe even fri! wheeee.....see thats why i gotta work so i can go out and spend my money on booze and clothes!

all i do now is go to work, come home, cook dinner, and then im too tired to do anything else...but hey i bought new clothes today! i bought a cute tee shirt and ANOTHER mini skirt and a pair of shorts....

what to wear on saturday.......i have nothing to wear! ok thats not true....i have tons of things to wear...just dont know what! im gonna be back son.....i have so much stuff to pack! oh and i gotta go shopping for all ya'll prezzies.....argh....and im running out of time!!! i dont even know what to buy u guys...

eeeksss i think my food is burning! im cooking roasted chicken rice....i hope it turns out ok!

2005-11-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

ok so i havent blogged in ages and yea i dont even know whr to start...uch has happened but i guess its kinda trivial..in regards to my last post, thanks for the support guys, it mean a lot and dont worry, im fine now...things are falling into place....haha i think things are falling into place only cos exams are over tomorrow and im gonna be getting drunk and partyin for 3 months straight! woo hoo!!!

ok first things first, gotta take a minute to pay tribute to the war heroes..its the 80th anniversary today.....the music played at 11am and perth, well australia, came to a stop. we stood still in silence to pay respect..it was fantastic!

ok so im gonna fail macroeconomics and psychology..and im not just bein melodramatic, i know when im gonna fail something and this is the first time ive REALLy felt that i will in a major exam...well it was my fault, i meanw ho goes out on the weekend before their exam!!!! who skips class the entire semester! who sits in the tav at uni having a middy and not knowing what lecturer is who cos i dont sho up for lectures! me!!! haha im so screwed...i really messed up this sem of uni but at the same time, i had the time of my life!

right...so whats been happening...lets see...oh i realised that i still have a stupid "crush"-god i hate that term! on james...i thought that at the end of last sem when i had my fun id be so over it..but yea i realised that he also sings like fantasticallya nd plays the piano..so heres his list of good qualities...hes tall, blue eyed, great hair, drives a nice car, in law faculty, sings, plays the piano, and is in the drama society!!!!! argh......perfect!!!! everything i wants in a guy haha but oh well too bad..im just the gal he knows from philosophy and triple crown party!

ooo yea that weekend out before my exams was one of the best nights out ive had in a looong while! sure the typical weekend of heading to northbridge is all well and good but that night was wicked! got home at like 7am!!!! slept in till 11ish obviously...i didnt even spend hat much...i spent like 30 bucks and i was so "happy" by the end of the night! carly had work at black betty's....dodgy ass club! but yea met up later...jess scammed drinks off this kiwi guy the whole night..i got my share too of someone else...carly had hers...she had to work double hard to catch up with jess and i cos we'd been drinking since 10 and she only got there at like 3am! that night carly got the best pash of her life, jess got over her craving for a black guy (hehehehe) and i met josh haha...

ok gotta go cook dinner now........

2005-10-25T18:47:00.000+08:00

i thought i got my life under control you know...but dont i planned a study timetable and everything but now with only 12 days left to my exams i havent done ANY studying at all..and no im not exagerating, i really mean what i say. and its not like i know what the uits are about, cos i dont...why? oh simple, i havent been to lectures. i dont go to uni. if i am in uni, im meeting friends or going to the tav. text books are expensive, transport is expensive, food is expensive...and i pay for it all by myself! i dont get allowance...i shouldnt complain cos i know the situation my family is in...but its not making my lfie any easier. ive been forced to suddenly be a real adult with responsibilities. yes i do admit i was spoilt to some extent but no, not anymore. i have no choice but to work. i have to go to uni as well which isnt easy. i have to be supportive for my mum cos shes emotionally unstable. my brother is probably going to get thrown into jail for speeding and drag racing haha....and so theres me, trying to keep our world from falling apart.

i know there are people who have found out about my blog which is why, till now i have tried very hard from going into anythong oo personal. but honestly, i dont give a fuck anymore. judge me if you want...i dont care...

anyway...deepavali is round the corner so i gotta but new clothes...so today i went out and bought 7 tops!! im pretty happy with my buy..came to a total of $87! the other day i bought a pair of shoes...i LOVE them..they were only $25!! but ive already worn them so they cant be used for deepavali...now i wanna but a pair of jeans, a pair fo black shorts for clubbing, a pair of pointy shoes(white), and a pair of closed toe slip on's! i only get $150 from my grandma and gradpa for deepavali, so the rest i gotta pay myself, which is fine...ive gotten use to it! but to see the money in my bank account drop is just so painful!!!!

oh god i was suppose to have listened to 10 lectures and read 6 chapters by today...but since yesterday, ive only read 1 chapter, and listened to 1 lecture...im pretty screwed! and this is only for ONE unit!!! im dead.

gotta go to sean's graduation dinner on friday..since my dads not here, i gotta go with my mum in her place...oh god, what the fuck do i wear!!

i think its time for another break down session...a shot of tequila, 2 beers and *****......that was what happened saturday night...i even called neeta, that helped a lot! right i gotta go pray..and then try and do some work...

2005-10-14T14:27:00.001+08:00

3 weeks and counting to the final exams......i finsih that and i'll no longer be a freshie...it also determines whether i get into law or not and i honestly dont think i will....so any prayers for me would be good lol!

ad nice long chat with a friend the other day followed by an email...that was nice..it definitely was much needed. i havent changed guys, im still the same ol cassie...exactly the same...well you'll see once i get back! ooo i am soooo excited about going back to singapore! i might even come down earlier since exams end on the 12 november! im cracking my head thinking what to get you guys so if you guys want anything then just tell me ok, it'll make my life easier!

i have an essay on philosophy to write and a debate for anthropology to prepare for and a research essay for macroeconmics! help!!!!!!! gotta start on philosophy today i think cos im goin out again tmr! yay!!!! its the final time i'll be goin till after the exams so i think it'll be good..but im kinda scared cos jess and satcey want to straighten my hair, call me saritha cos its more sexual apparently and hook me up wit a "nice white boy" according to them....great....why do i always choose crazy friends! im gonna be their barbie doll!! noooooo!!!! and oh yea they wanna start drinking from 4pm onwards! great, just great!

wednesday was fun, went to the belgium beer bar and i tried this beer which was 11.3% alcohol and yea nads and aj had some other types of belgium beer! we had two servings of large chips...seriously large..chocolate delice and creme brulee! yummy!! oh and a vege burger and a lamb burger...bill came to $95! aj lost 20 bucks so nads and i paid like 40 bucks each....im broke! then we went window shopping in the city! i saw this gown which i am in love with!!! it costs $295 which ye ai can sorta pay for sinc eim working...bu like i dont really need a gown cos i have so many already and its only a guild ball...but like ok im a modest person and i dont have greats elf confidence but seriously i never felt hotter in my life...nads and aj think i shld get it cos yea it was....wow.....i mean i love it and i looked really nice in it! i want that gown! i think im gonna go back to the shop and take a picture wearing it...i shall describe it and hopefully i can out a pic of it up! its like this realy nice greenish colour and its completely backless...the front is likea U shape which you pul down pass your belly button and attach a broach to it..sso yea no bra allowed cos front and back are kinda bare....i want it!!!!

thursday was not such a great day! i couldnt handle goin to uni yesterday...my life is spinning outof control and im not being melodramatic...if only you knew....but hey i gotta face it...i was so upset i just couldnt get myself outta bed to go to uni....slept in, so missed my first lecture...macro tute was crap cos i didnt know what was goin on..but the day got better, saw john on the bus but yea im not sure if i was happy or not to see him....oh and yea what really made my day was what happened while waiting for the bus!

we were all at the bus stop outside uni at about 6.15pm when a car pulls up on thegrass patch thingy which divides the roads....yea you know what i mean..anyway, these 4 guys get out wearing what looks like mining gear..basically, overalls. two of them have them pulled down so all we see if their bae bodies which i must say were pretty good! next thing we know they say to all of us at the bus stop they blew a tire and this one guy takes off his overalls and shoes till he only has his boxers on and starts changing the tire and by the way its freezing cold ok! they must have been playing some kinda treasure hunt game cos they were videoing what they were doin...suddenly the guy in boxers strips down completely and starts changing the tire showing us his naked ass then after hes done he turns around and faces us...we all decided it was the cold that um.....shrunk him haha...man that was funny! then the bus came and that was that...ok imagine doing that in singapore hahahah you'd be arrested straight away!!!! that was funny hehehe

work was horrible today...i left early, i hope the boss doenst find out or im screwed! i think im gonna dye my hair, and streak it red...soon...but i dunno when..i need money for that...oh yea and my friends are all getting brazillian waxes cos beach season is coming up...they are pressuring me into it....i mean they do it cos their boyfriend slike it..if ya know what i mena haha...no point for me is there? since im single and all...so on a scale from 1-10, 10 being excrutiating pain...what would you rate the pain level to be? id give it a 100! oh yea and i gotta get my belly button pierced! so many things to do!!! eeeks!!

2005-10-14T14:27:00.000+08:00

3 weeks and counting to the final exams......i finsih that and i'll no longer be a freshie...it also determines whether i get into law or not and i honestly dont think i will....so any prayers for me would be good lol!

ad nice long chat with a friend the other day followed by an email...that was nice..it definitely was much needed. i havent changed guys, im still the same ol cassie...exactly the same...well you'll see once i get back! ooo i am soooo excited about going back to singapore! i might even come down earlier since exams end on the 12 november! im cracking my head thinking what to get you guys so if you guys want anything then just tell me ok, it'll make my life easier!

i have an essay on philosophy to write and a debate for anthropology to prepare for and a research essay for macroeconmics! help!!!!!!! gotta start on philosophy today i think cos im goin out again tmr! yay!!!! its the final time i'll be goin till after the exams so i think it'll be good..but im kinda scared cos jess and satcey want to straighten my hair, call me saritha cos its more sexual apparently and hook me up wit a "nice white boy" according to them....great....why do i always choose crazy friends! im gonna be their barbie doll!! noooooo!!!! and oh yea they wanna start drinking from 4pm onwards! great, just great!

wednesday was fun, went to the belgium beer bar and i tried this beer which was 11.3% alcohol and yea nads and aj had some other types of belgium beer! we had two servings of large chips...seriously large..chocolate delice and creme brulee! yummy!! oh and a vege burger and a lamb burger...bill came to $95! aj lost 20 bucks so nads and i paid like 40 bucks each....im broke! then we went window shopping in the city! i saw this gown which i am in love with!!! it costs $295 which ye ai can sorta pay for sinc eim working...bu like i dont really need a gown cos i have so many already and its only a guild ball...but like ok im a modest person and i dont have greats elf confidence but seriously i never felt hotter in my life...nads and aj think i shld get it cos yea it was....wow.....i mean i love it and i looked really nice in it! i want that gown! i think im gonna go back to the shop and take a picture wearing it...i shall describe it and hopefully i can out a pic of it up! its like this realy nice greenish colour and its completely backless...the front is likea U shape which you pul down pass your belly button and attach a broach to it..sso yea no bra allowed cos front and back are kinda bare....i want it!!!!

thursday was not such a great day! i couldnt handle goin to uni yesterday...my life is spinning outof control and im not being melodramatic...if only you knew....but hey i gotta face it...i was so upset i just couldnt get myself outta bed to go to uni....slept in, so missed my first lecture...macro tute was crap cos i didnt know what was goin on..but the day got better, saw john on the bus but yea im not sure if i was happy or not to see him....oh and yea what really made my day was what happened while waiting for the bus!

we were all at the bus stop outside uni at about 6.15pm when a car pulls up on thegrass patch thingy which divides the roads....yea you know what i mean..anyway, these 4 guys get out wearing what looks like mining gear..basically, overalls. two of them have them pulled down so all we see if their bae bodies which i must say were pretty good! next thing we know they say to all of us at the bus stop they blew a tire and this one guy takes off his overalls and shoes till he only has his boxers on and starts changing the tire and by the way its freezing cold ok! they must have been playing some kinda treasure hunt game cos they were videoing what they were doin...suddenly the guy in boxers strips down completely and starts changing the tire showing us his nked ass then after hes done he turns around and faces us...we all decided it was the cold that um.....shrunk him haha...man that was funny! then the bus came and that was that...ok imagine doing that in singapore hahahah you'd be arrested straight away!!!! that was funny hehehe

work was horrible today...i left early, i hope the boss doenst find out or im screwed! i think im gonna dye my hair, and streak it red...soon...but i dunno when..i need money for that...oh yea and my friends are all getting brazillian waxes cos beach season is coming up...they are pressuring me into it....i mean they do it cos their boyfriend slike it..if ya know what i mena haha...no point for me is there? since im single and all...so on a scale from 1-10, 10 being excrutiating pain...what would you rate the pain level to be? id give it a 100! oh yea and i gotta get my belly button pierced! so many things to do!!! eeeks!!

2005-10-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

John john john....if only i could figure you out....well actually i think i have, you dont like me. oh well too bad for me haha move on to the next guy!

well i got fired haha...by that damn bitch pat..i swear to god that woman hates me but then i got rehired by the real boss...see pat was put in charge while anna went to sydney aand so the bitch took the opportunity to fire me but i complained to anna's husband and now i got my job back hehehe! fucking bitch! man when she said that "the company wouldnt be needing my services anymore", you should have seen john and klas's jaws drop...they were shocked! yea so the guys were gonna give me a lift home..man i love hanging out with them, just cos they're so god damn hot! i mean hot identical twins...what more could a girl ask for??!! yea anyway, i didnt go home with them cos i was pissed off at pat and needed my space so i took the train....john called but i didnt answer cos i left without sayin bye, only that i didnt need a lift..i didnt answer, he called again, still didnt answer..finally i smsed him and he called to see if i was ok and basically told me that pat's a bitch...so yea i havent told them i got my job back..maybe then john will miss me heheh! doubt it!

gotta go down south to mandurah for work this sat.....argh its such a distance! end at 6 ad them gotta rush home, get to tara's house, change and then go clubbing with craly and jess.....im gonna be exhausted! but i need a girls night out and we're havin a contest to see who's gonna get the most drinks bought for them! i just hope some weird abo doesnt buy me a rose again and expect me to dance with him hhaa...sure it was sweet but hey if ya not hot a rose wont do much, even if the rose costs 9 bucks!

im so sick and tire dof uni...but oh we got octoberfest in the tav tmr!!!!! so yea drinkin from 11am till 7pm with great bands and music! tonights, solid gold 80s party but im not goin..im a good girl see lol! but yea the amount of parties are slowing down now cos the exams are round the corner..i better start studying if i wanna get into law!!! eeekkss!!!!! no one said uni was hard!!!!! haha

2005-09-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

ok Black Eyed Peas concert review time! haha....well i must say the concert was really good...except for that guy who was trying to grease me up the whole time...but he did buy nadia and i water which sobered us up...which was to his disadvantage i might add lol! but yea it was heaps fun!!! not as good as boyz II men but still really good! we were in the second standing area so it was kinda hard to see but it was fun just dancing with everyone else and screaming out the lyrics and jumping up and down! hehe! oh and hanging out with nadia again after ages was great! we went to the after party which was REALLy disappointing! i mean we could hardly even meet the peas cos theyw ere in this tiny shut off area and only people who had VIP passes could get in..so we called sean to come pick us up! BUT WAIT! while waiting for sean, we were leaning over the rails looking down into the VIP area....next we know, Taboo if jumping on the coach and talking to these 2 chicks a few people down from us...suddenly he's running up the stairs, grabs the girls and brings them into the VIP area....so first reaction was, DAMN THOSE SLUTS THEY ARE SO LUCKY! like omg right...Taboo thought they were hot and let them in...i wanted that...so we continued watching the scene....AND THEN THE TABLES TURNED HEHEHE! Nadia suddenly realises that Will-I-Am from the peas is stamding right in front of us! so she taps him on the shoulder and gives him a hug and a kiss on the cheek and then i did the same...then he looked at me and said that i had the greatest smile he's ever seena nd i was georgeous! LIKE OMG!!!!! he's a famous star and hes complementing ME!!!!! then he gets bombarded with girls taking his pic and im just standing there star struck..ten he poushes the girls aside and asks me if i wanted to join him in the VIP section.....so of course i said YES!!!! so there you go, suddenly we were the sluts and we were in the VIP section.....on the way there ppl interrupted us and so i let go of his hand but he stopped and took me by the hand and led me in!! OMG!!!! hahaha so yea the night ended REALLY well!!! but hey the self-confidence still hasnt improved despite that....im just weird lol! yea so after the epas let nads and i had the band members trying to buy us drinks but we had to go anyway so we left...but wow......oh and he kept pointing at my dimple...hehe...

ok so thats the review on bep!! i cant believe that like wow! oh nads has a new guy now...and hes pretty hot..im so jealous..i on the other hand like John sooooooooo much...like if hes sick i wanna take care of him...its not just a superficial cruch but oh well he leaves in 2mths so i dont expect anything..im just totally flirting with hom at work and it makes working so much more fun...so i hope he feels better cos we're suppose to go to the Perth Royal Show(the carnival) together before work tomorrow...so we'll see! oh heres smth weird i realised whilst nads and i were drinking before the cocnert....i like John, and nads guy is called David..and my dad's name is John David Andrews...ok completely random but just felt like mentioning it anyway!

still got my anthrop assignmnet to do...god im so screwed for it..pray for me! i dont even think i have time to go to te lib and do research which means i'll have to get it offline which is VERY VERY bad! with trying to earn cash and john and uni....my heads completly messed up! i wanna quit work but i need the cash cos my family's financial situation isnt that great so ive told hem to stop my allowance..so i have to earn my own money...and i spend on clothes like evry week now...i but expensive concert tickets, plus Ciera and Ludacris will be in town so i need $85 for that concert....HELP! haha anyway im sure i'll work it all out! oh yea, Carly broke up with AJ....i could see it coming but didnt think itd be this soon so yay at least i wont be the third wheel with them anymore!

2005-09-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

i have an assignment due in on mindayf ro anthrop and i havent done anything, its worth 35%! and ive only been to 3 lectures for this unit the entire semester..im screwed!

went out wed night....was the fifth wheel...didnt get asked to dance at the club either....fucked up night.....

im completely broke...spent $85 on alcohol in the past week....great fro my liver...and then add abou $50 worth of drinks bought for me by friends and guys....i need to detox..

the eagles lost the AFL so im utterly depressed.....

not sure whether to go out tonight cos all Wa ppl are gonna be depressed cos of the lost...damn those sydney swans! footy is such a brilliant game....everyone will drink their sorrows away tonight.....jess and satce asked me to rock up to the paramount but i dunno....getting home will be a bitch...

right im still depressed...i cant believe the eagles lost...by 4 points...they lost!

2005-09-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD! BOYZ TO MEN WERE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GREAT! i mean i thought the best concert id been to was linkin park but this was just 10 times better! sure the group is like 15 years old but hey they have the best songs, especially love songs! went with nadia, her mummy and my mummy! oh my god i was screaming and jumping up and down haha!! woah! i'll have to put pics up! and then we went for the after party at the club, Ruby Room! so i got to hug all of them, kiss them on the cheek and i even danced with one of them!!!!! arghhhhhh like wow! ok yea nads and i were such groupies, our mums had coffee while waiting for us till 130am! hehe but about 1am, they came up to hug the guys as well! it was fantastic! so yea a lot of people arent really fans but i sure as hell am! i love their songs! i love them! and sean, one of the members, is sooo hot!! haha! best time ever hey! oh and it was soooo cool when they sang the song Mama, they told everyone to take out their phones to call their mum but all i had to do was hug her cos she was right next to me! and like it was just like the days when ppl had lighters and held them up, we all held up our phones...corny yes, but it was so pretty to look at! i cant believe i got to see them and hug them hehehehehe! oooooo and Random performed as well, they are this amazing kiwi/aussie grp and i got to dance with them too and take photos!!! they are such good singers hey and wicked dancers!

so that was fantastic! lets see now...wat else has gone on in cassie land since monday! oh yea went to uni on the tue and like didnt go to class, i was sooo tired cos of the night before(the concert)! met up with AJ, Tony, Paul and a few others, that was great! got a call from AJ when i got home saying Carly and Tara missed me cos they havent seen me in ages haha so met up with carly on wednesday and yesterday..havent seen tara yet but maybe on monday cos we're goin bowling! im finally on holiday!! and on wed we're goin ice skating! oh yea yesterday haha we went to the tav at like 3pm, had a class at 4...so yea had about half a jug of gd ol amber ale and went to class buzzing! hehe that was funny to sit there knowing id drunk and wasnt competely sober! well yea we came up with names for everyday day so we can drink at the tav forever!

Midori Mondays
Tequila Tuesdays
'W'odka Wednesdays
Tooheys Thursdays
Francesco Fridays
Smirnkoff Saturdays
Schnapps Sundays

i cant wait! we're gonna lay drinking games on monday until we're all wasted after bowling! steves on wednesday night followed by carnegies! i cant wait! ok yea sur ei have about a million things to do for uni, like catch up on all the readings, listen to the lectures online cos i missed them, start on my research essay but hey i wanna have fun at the same time! oh plus i have a job so i gotta work but thats ok...my shifts coincide with the days john has work so the eyes will at least have a pleasant sight hahahah! ahhh soo much uni work to do, no one told me uni was hard! haha!

im in a fantastic mood today! ot my shifts sorted for work, watching a movie on tele later...10 things i hate abt u! and i got tmr to look forward to! im goin out with jess and stacey! wheee!!! right ok im rambling on....so i shall end here!

2005-09-11T03:06:00.000+08:00

ok its like 3.07am and i just got home from the clubs....i have to keep checking my spelling cos im sorta hitting the wrong keys lol! so i had soo much fun! like we were at base and the bartender was soooo cute and kept giving us free shots! but in the end out of the 4 of us he gave his number to jules! damn that girl! lol! ok o get this right, these are the names of the shots we had:

1) Cock Sucking Cowboy
2) Quick Fuck
3) Hard On
4) Menage a Trois (ok i dont how to spell this, its french and right now my brains arnt functioning too well!)
5) and some other shot which tasted like crap!

so between us we had like 17 shots! that is, between jules, audra and myself! i got photos, i'll try and post them up!

also had a beer and some alcohol thingy with red bull....yummy!

the end of the night kinda sucked a bit tho cos nadia was getting picked up by the lead singer of the band, jules was with david, audra was with rob (aka dickhead cos he keeps calling me CASSEY) and well i was alone....sob sob but no worries, i have enough alcohol in me to put me to sleep which is what im going to do right now! nite!! hehe and dont judge me!!!
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ok its the next day and ive edited out all the typos cos wat i wrote didnt make sense!

2005-09-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

today was an excellant day at uni! i got to my 9am lecture on time which was brilliant, cos im always late and i never know whats goin on cos hey its philosophy: knowledge...you have to go for one of these then you'll know how mind boggling things can be..again we discussed the perception of the cat is on the mat! and pink elephants climbing the walls! ok nevermind hehe! yea well the reverand dude made another comment on how God may not exist or there may be to heaven...go figure, sometimes i think he wears his collar to trick us, he probably got it at a costume shop! unfortunately however i missed andrew brennan's ethic slecture today cos mum needed me home early..but yea started they day off well, went to economics and knew exactly what was goin on...wow..felt good, then anthrop which okw as boring but the company was good..then anthrop tute which was interesting..and eventhough i only got 59 on my anthrop essay and i failed my econs mid sem the day is still good! i came home, did some psych reading and just chilled...uni seems to be coming together again!

oh yea im going for the black eyes peas concert!gonna buy the tix tomorrow, cant wiat! so its $85 and im gonna be broke but what the heck! yes i cant buy clothes instead but it'll be worth it! ooo yea and i may be going for the Ecoms Ball (commerce faculty ball), tix are $90 and nadia will be my date but hey who cares, i get to dress up and have fun! if i dont get tix to that i'll go to the murdoch ball! i love balls! they are soooo fun!!!

not gonna go to uni tmr, gonna stay home and suck up, but i actually feel like studying so it wont be that bad hey! gonna rock up to northbridge on fri and sat...woohoo! i love uni again!!

why am i blogging so much recently? hmmm oh well who cares!

2005-09-07T15:54:00.000+08:00

if ya ever want a good laugh, you should check out this comedian called Russel Peters...he is soooo freaking funny and has the best jokes about indians and chinese! ok hes indian himself and its just wicked! ive seen his act like 3 times and its still hilarious! download it, its worth it!!

right so i wanna travel around the world, i wanna live with friends, i wanna live alone, i wanna be independent but i cant! yes i know ive gone on and on and on about this before but its just hard! met up with victoria and nadia for lunch and like they both wanna move out and yea vic can cos she freaking WHITE!! her parents get it...they realise shes 18 and so can live by herself! ok with nads, its kinda hard, same situation as me!! but still these guys are 18!! im turning freaking 20!!! im behind everyone!! yes i know you moved to perth for us kids but in reality, it was for sean!!! i could have been put in a dorm!!! you moved cos of sean! cos hes still kinda young!! but hey, no one told you to buy a plot of land on a freaking golf course! no one told you to build a house! no one told you to go out and get loans! ok im grateful, i really am..i mean uni fees arent cheap at all as an international student, like 17 grand a year or something and next year you gotta pay for sean too, and the house is georgeous! so all this means you cant retire early...so ok, why cant we compromise! why dont you let me still have my freedom while i stay at home! i mean, let me go out when i want, with who i want, and come home when i want! dont check on me, dont see if ive done my assignments! i didnt even want to study in Perth, i wanted to go to Sydney or somewhere! ok ok i seem like a spoilt brat! i love my folks, and i wanna keep them happy but i also wanna live my life! and dont say im turning into a white kid and i shouldnt have all these thoughts of moving out cos thats not how asian kids are...well hey thats not true! and also, my dad's white if you remember! ive been brought up in a different sorta world!! ok.....ok breathe....cant we just compromise? please?

ok moving on swiflty, now im done ranting!

get russel peters i say again! hehe...argh i hate the weather! its raining and windy, i nearly fell over today the wind was so strong! its suppose to be wonderful spring! get out of winter mother nature! i should have a spring fling hehehe! gotta buy new clothes...oh wait i cant, why? oh thats right cos i have to lose all the weight i gained from winter!! i look like a whale! oh and before some random starts saying im an airhead or smth...id just like to say that yes, we do care about what goes on in the rest of the world, and yes we feel sorry for them but life still goes on and theres no point lamenting over the matter. in perth, we get stabbings once a week at clubs, we have ppl being kidnapped ALL the time, ppl being beat up, but still life goes on! right, i said it. oh and kit, i had this trojan horse virus and everytime i clicked to go to your blog for about a week, i got sent to all these porn sites with like really INTERESTING pictures of girls..had to go through that for a week! thank god its all fixed now!

beach season is coming! gotta lose weight, fit into swim suits again! wheee!!! i wanna learn to surf! oh yea, big dilemma...backstreet boys are suppose to be coming to perth in jan and so is gwen stefani and kelly clarkson..ok and i dunno when rock it will be here but that has like oasis, garbage and like someone else i cant rmb right now! and i wont be here in jan!! i'll be in spore! wat do i do!!! so confuzzled! ooo dirty dancing te musical will be here in nov, i might go for that! and im too broke to go for the Russian Ballet...they are performing ALL the classics and i really wanna go(kit, you'll love it)......ah ya ya no money no money! maybe if i can get the money i should just go myself...now to check if black eyed peas tickets are still selling! fingers crossed!

2005-09-06T10:48:00.000+08:00

ok problem!! need to figure out how im gonna convince my parents to let me go out 3 nights in a row....

Thursday ----> Nadia : Murdoch Uni Tav, Theme Dress Night
Friday ------> AJ, Carly, Tara : Steve's, Harbourside
Saturday ----> Jess, Stacy : Paramount

HOW!!!!!!!

2005-09-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

i need a job...i need money! argh......ok well moving on, my grandpa left today, it was nice having him visit and kinda sad to see him go but now i'll at least have some free time..ive been so tired, juggling uni and home and things...so much work to do! uni is not a piece of cake! its hard work! semester 1 was fun but now.....oh well enough complaining! i am still having fun tho!

so went to AJs surprise party on sat...that was fun cos tara, carly and i had a few drinks! bacardi 151 is strong stuff (78% alcohol)...so ya can imagine! got another party on friday night, hope im allowed to go! things are all settledw ith nadia and i now...she came over today, missed uni and we watched chick flicks lol...

i always blog about the same things, uni and parties, this is sooo bad! hmm well nat hows uni? havent talked to you in ags.....gotta fill me in on EVERYTHING!! cant wait to be back in singapore...i have a list of things i wanna eat!

1. Mocha Frap from Starbucks
2. Otah-Otah
3. Satay
4. Hokkien Mee
5. Rojak
6. Popiah
7. Pepper Crab
8. Fish & Co (actually, the fish and chips here are obviously way better!)

hmm ok i cant think of the rest now cos im full..just had dinner lol! oo which reminds me there's this awesome little restaurant in Freo...when my friends actually visit me (ahem ahem) i'll bring them!

2005-08-26T20:25:00.000+08:00

ive always imagined going off to uni, and staying in a dorm or moving into an apartment with my mates...so obviously thatd ream never came true. then it was the idea that uni is the best time of your life. its all about the social atmosphere and parties and things. but, when you live with your parents who are uber conservative, that dream is dashed again. firstly, im turning 20, i should be given my freedom to do what i want, go out when i want. but no, they refuse to let me. so yea they want me to cut down my going out to twice a month, but like ive already reduced it from twice a week to once a week and now they want me to do this! i tried talking to them and explaining how uni life is and they refuse to even hear me out. i thought with my dad being wetern and everything that he'd understand me. but he doesnt. its weird, i know deep down he does but somehow hes been asianised! and my mum keeps telling me that its different fro white kids cos theyve lived here their whole life and thats the way their culture works.so yea, ive been raised in asia but quite honestly, do i think like most conservative asians? i think not. sure i treasure my asian values and im proud of it but like...argh i dunno. why wont they listen? why wont they try understanding? mum says im being selfish cos they worry everytime i go out and come home so late or stay over. but im fine, nothing will happen to me. im already misisng out on steves on wed nights. and i just realised fridays at the deen is awesome and the paramount but im only allowed out once a week and now only twice a month! i dont think im being selfish..i just wanna live my dream, what ive always imagined uni life to be...i just wanna live it and exprience it before i get too old and start regretting not doing things when i was younger! oh and get this, they think im gonna continue living with them till im 24/25!!!! THATS A JOKE!!! i wanted to move out end of next yr, when i was 21 since they wont let me now, or more like i feel bad for them so i wont. but hey i wont mind staying with them IF THEY GIVE ME MY FREEDOM AND STOP TREATING ME LIKE IM A KID!!!!! let me go out as late as i want, do what i want, stop checking to see if i have homework, stop wanting to check on my grades, stop it!! give me my freedom and you wont be pushing me away! why dont they get it. you know what i gotta do? i gotta get a job, save up, get a car and show them IF i wanted to, i do have the power to move out but I CHOOSE not to for their sake.

i think i noe why they are even more concern now..went out on friday to metros instead of my usual saturday right...there were 3 stabbings AGAIN on sat night at metros. plus i told my mum ithink one of my friends drinks were spiked and so now shes even mroe freaked.

ok im pretty sure ive blogged about these issues before but i need to whine again!

i need to gain confidence. what does she have that i dont? confidence.

hope mumw ill let me go out tmr and stay over so i can stay out till late and go to the lib in the morning at uwa.

my grandpa arrives monday!! yay!!! im looking forward to seieng him but bye bye social life. will have to resort to drinks in the tav of tuesdays. havent been to the tav in a while. im broke.

2005-08-21T15:56:00.000+08:00

What is knowledge?

One only knows something if:

1) P is a proposition and it has to be true (P)
2) A believes in P (BaP)
3) A has a justifies belief in P (JBaP)

then, A knows P.

So folks, next time you think you know something, make sure your sure you know it.

Aristotle's the cat is on the mat:
The cat is on the mat. I believe the cat is on the mat. I am justified in saying so as i can see the cat is on the mat. Everyone else in the room can see the cat is on the mat. But as the skeptic would say, how can you justify to me that youu can actually see the cat is on the mat and it is not the matter of our senses playing a trick on all of us. So do we then truly know anything?

And thats a bit of Philosophy for you lol.

I have an essay due on for this wonderful unit next tuesday.....im so scerwed lol! i think i'll end up talking in riddles! So maybe i should do the essay on the other option, Philosophy-Ethics...hmmm...

ok moving away from that! got a mid-semester exam on Macroeconomics on Friday!! the macro here is soooooo different from what we learnt in JC.well the first bit anyway but now we're moving on to stuff i remember learning...lab report due next monday too..just great! at least i already handed in my anthropolgy assignment on colonialism in vietnam!

oh yea...ok nat in particular, you'll love this. last wednesday for psych we had to carry out a field experiment. so what we had to do right was first assign one person to stand alone and look up into the sky while the other hides and discreetly takes down the number of passer-bys looking up (sound familiar?). and then, we increase the number to like a group of 3-5 and see how many people look up! ok so yours truly was chosen by jess(damn you jess haha) to look up all by myself in the middle of the guild!! with everyone walking around and hot guys playing ball on oak lawn!! most people thought id spaced out and lost my mind and looked at me rather than up but when we increased the group size, 14 outta 20 looked up...bloody hilarious i tell ya! but oh so so so humiliating for me...thanks A LOT jess! so you see....those crazy things we talked of carrying out are all part of psychological research!

lets see....what else is new? hmmm oh yea the traffic light part on friday night! thatw as sooo fun..even danced to jail house rock...james was wearing red tho *sob sob* and someone spilt punch all down the front of my blouse which rob was very pleased about haha.....i reaked of alcohol but i washed it all off in the bathroom and dried the top! oh and zenobia was being stalked by this weirdo guy..went to the deen and paramount after the tav closed (closed at 12 cos it was in uni) and glen and toby saved me from Philip! see Philip is like from Germany right...a friends friend..and he kept trying to dance with me and talk to me but like i couldnt understand cos his accent was sooo thick! thanks for the save guys! kerith on the other hand stood there laughing! ended up dancing with glen which pissed Philip off so much..then danced with rob and david whch pissed him off even more but oh well, had to make it clear i was not interested and besides, nat said he wasnt hot enough lol! right another entry about my life which has no meaning to anyone what so ever..but one day im gonna read back on all this and laugh! i think i should like keep a book and write down all the clubbing/party experiences!

ok guys when i get back to singapore we should hold like a massive party! traffic light party would be way cool but then on the other hand, a traffic light party is only good when its with strangers cos then you can meet and greet ppl *wink*

mums going insane...she thinks i go out too much and coming home at 3 is way too late! like im almost gonna be 20 freaking years old! im old!! and yet she keeps restrictions on me! i gotta get a job and a car and show her i have the power to move out if i want then maybe she'll let me do what i want! she thinks im a bad influence on sean...that when he turns 18 he'll then wanna go out every night too! but like sean is already worse than me and even if i stay home every night it wont make a diff! once he's 18 nothing will stop him..now if she could just understand that! oh and the best thing she says is..."i bet your friends in singapore dont go out so much, not like every week!" argggggghhhhhhhh not fair!!!!!!!!!! im misisng out on wednesday nights at steves, thursday salsa nights at the deen, friday at paramount and metropolis freo and sat night northbridge! SO NOT FAIR!!! and mums the boss so like even if my dad would let me she'll just say something to change his mind!!

right then anyway...
new favourite beer: amber ale
strongest shaker: illusion
worst shot to have: sambuca
most immune to: tequila

2005-08-06T10:48:00.000+08:00

its only the 3rd week of the second semester and im absoluetly drained...im over the whole uni thing..nah not really, i still wish i can stay in uni forever cos its the best time ive even had in my life! but man i have so much reading to do and lectures to listen to again because i couldnt copy down everything frast in enough...like they put the stuff of the slides or overheads (depending on the lecturer) but then they talk about so much more and your trying your best to write it all down and you cant!!! argh so much work to do.....

i absolutely love my philosophy lectures, i study to different sets of it, one is knowledge and skepticism an the other is ethics. the knowledge topic is sooooooo cofuzzling but so fascinating but i have no idea how im gonna pass the unit....gues sitw ould help if i figure out if im a relativist or an absolutist when it comes to truth and if there really is aboslute knowledge. and ethics...man andrew brennan is the funnist lecturer anyone can get! with his jokes and scottish accent........who cares if i have no idea if im a utiliatrian/ consequentialist or not...and if im completely lost during lectures..its worth going to them at 5pm just cos hes sooo funny!

i decided to drop english and took anthropology again...the ethnography we study is about crack cocaine and call-girls.....interesting to say the least! psychology is getting more demanding cos we gotta start choosing majors next sem...and macroeconomics is no way close to the same stuff we did in singapore but im gettin thru it, sort of.

so much work, so little time....doesnt help that im in the tav every week...oh this is hilarious,
nadia: hey cass, do you want a soft drink or a NORMAL drink this time?
me: nadia....since whenw as beer a NORMAL drink but yea sure i'll have a amber ale middy...you want a normal drink too or a soft drink?
nadia: get me a toohey;s middy...
Amy: Well i wont have one...im trying something new, not drinking when im in the tav!
Victoria: Cant wait till im 18!!

haha oh well....in murdoch theres a unit we like to call tavernology 101! a unit ya cant ever fail! see thats what unis about ya noe...getting grades good enough to get promoted and then spending most of your time in the tav, hanging out with friends, lunch on oak lawn and watching movies on tight ass tuesday! i love my uni life!

ah well i better go and try and do some work before going out tonight....miss you guys lots! will see you in dec! i was gonna come back in nov but i gotta stay for victoria's birthday!

2005-07-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

so i havent been online in a while, thats cos my computer was down...but anyway...

kinda feel so apart from anything, like i didnt even know uni term ha started in singapore...good luck you guys! enjoy semester 1 as much as you can!

so semester 1 is the best time you'll have...partying all the time and not studying but ive just started semsester 2 an man am i stressed out..doesnt help that im pressured into gettin good grades so i can move to law next year. its only the second week of the term and all of us feel the pressure...the units are of course harder, the work laod is more and everyone seems to have a new theory on uni life..that is, that we may actually need to start studying. got friends who failed a few units so have to overload next sem and so they think i got good grades but then you got others who get startigh HDs....true they have no life but still...

had to decide today whether to continue doing my english course which i love..its such a great unit...well if you didnt like lit then this unit would suck but i love it! but i gotta be practical, i gotta take a unit i know for sure i can score in so macro and anthrop it is, still doin philosophy and psych..philosophy is soooo deep....i mean iw lk outta a lect feeling so confuzzled! but its a great feeling too..i wish you guys could sit in on some of the lects i have...

not going for the solid gold ball tomorrow but may rock up to the psycholics anonymous party at red sea...cant be bothered going but people keep telling me to go..oh yea, nats party was last week and it was off the roof! had the best time ever! and paramount has an awesome band! almost better than deen and mustangs! im so sick of like dancing to rnb so yea back to old school sounds as aussie music...the best. did i mention we got her a stripper? that was kinda interesting to watch in the hotel room...i shall leave out details haha but i had baby oil all over me...argh!

kinda sown today, not sure why..gues sits one of those days! oh yea but i am happy for nadia cos shes goin out with this guy and he is so sweet! finally. she deserves someone like that. like ive not really mentioned nadia before but like she is the closest girlfrind i have here in perth and like AJ is my closest guy friend..we're gonna watch a movie tomorrow...seems that nadia is attached now and as far as her mum is concerned, shes at my house now watching movies lol. AJ might soon be attached to Lucy and then that leaves me...funny the way things work out, finally do belive that i repel guys lol!

oh yea and i just found out that i blush! i mean i never use to but today after i saw James, Zenobia said i turned crimson! just great....haha

god my blog posts are all so shallow.....oh well, see you guys in dec!

2005-07-16T09:16:00.000+08:00

every morning i get the full blast of the suns rays....the light just pours right thru the french doors and into my face...i should change the positioning of my bed! and so that is why i am awake on a saturday morning instead of sleeping in! damn that blasted sun! so anyway, i refused to admit i was sick and so i didnt take any med until yesterday morning when i admitted defeat. and now, i have a FULLY jam packed day and im gonna be too sick to enjoy it...i cant even drink anything tonight cos im sick and its like tashas paying so double bummer!

12 - meet nat and nadia
1230 - belgium bar for a beer and chips
230 - watch bewitched at the ridiculous price of AUS$12.50
530 - head back to st cats to get ready
7 - nats treat, dinner at hampden road
9.26 - catch the bus into the city cos parking cost a bomb
9.45 - get into metros for free and leave
10.15 - bring nat to the secret location
10.45 - head for the deen
12 - nat turns 18!!
12.30 - go back to metros
5.30 - go for breakfast
6.30 - SLEEP!!

ok now i feel like crap so how the heck and im gonna go through all this! i really should just stay home and rest for uni on monday but i promised nat and she'll be sooooooo sad if i dont go! the things i do for these psycho friends of mine!

anyway this is for mansi, i was just reading through my old blog posts about how life was so boring and kinda sucked when i first got here...but now i look at my posts and i always have things to do and i love it!!! so mansi girl...i noe its tough, nat noes its tough but hey just wait for uni, give it a chance to grow on you and i promise things will seem much better! although you will always miss ya friends! take crae gal!

2005-07-11T16:16:00.000+08:00

i prayed for divine intervention and i got...by the grace of god, i have done it lol i passed all my units for semester one without really studying, as usual!! yay!!!!! not the greatest results but hey im just happy i dont have to repeat the units next year and overload!!!

Philosophy and Human Nature - 68 (CREDIT)
Psychology: Mind and Brain - 74 (DISTINCTION)
Anthropology, Being Human: Identity, Culture and Society - 72 (Distinction)
Microeconomics - 66 (CREDIT)

Pass -> 50-60
Credit -> 60-70
Distinction -> 70-80
High Distinction -> 80 onwards

so yea i cant believe i passed philosophy, i never knew what was goign on and what Plato, Aristotle, Freud, Darwin and de Beauvoir were on abouyt but hey i managed to scrap thru and only 2 points away from a distinction!!! i think it was my first assignemnt which dragged the marks down...and yay i didnt flunk my major! see the thing is, i started studying for psych at 11pm the night before and didnt sleep ata ll and went straight for the exam at 9am, my wonderful friends had come over to my house so i couldnt study lol! but yay i did ok!! and oh my god anthropology....i didnt buy the text books, i never did any of the readinsg in the library and didnt take many notes during lecture but still a D!!! woo hoo....but dumbest thing is i figured i didnt wanna do anthrop next sem co si was too lazy to do the reaidng so i switched to do english (Voicing differences and desire) but now im not sure.....so i'll go for both the lectures and see which i like better hehehe! i cant belive i did so badly for economics tho...ok yes i didnt study and relied on what i knew from A levels...but i got a B at A levels and then messed up in uni..oh well next semster i will actually try this thing called studying...but that doesnt mean im gonna stop drinking and partying hard!!!

so to all you guys about to start uni, its all about the social life ok.......don get too worked up aout getting the grades and going or classes! but still study, do as much reading as humanly possible cos lets face it, its quite impossible to do all if you wanna have a social life! and good luck guys! lemme know what units and stuff you guys are doing so i crash your lectures when i get back! haha

oh yea and next year im gonna take a first year unit and eitehr do italian or french....which one do you think i should do? hmmm...well thats next year, far, far away!

miss you guys heaps....and neeta and kish, if you guys got missed calls on your handphones on saturday night i do apologise cos my drunkard friends kidnapped my handphone....im glad they didnt get through...anyways XXXs and OOOs!

2005-07-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KISHAN!
ok so yea i tried calling you but as usual overseas calls are a nightmare and so i gave up.....haha anyway just wanted to wish ya happy birthday in case i didnt get a chance since im going out all day and stuff...so yea thats it!!! have a gd day! get smashed and party hard!

2005-06-29T15:15:00.000+08:00

If ya havent watched the movie "The Notebook" and especially if your a girl, you should be ashamed. Its the best movie ever made, a love story so great and so sweet that your not human if you dont cry.

Had a dream last night, dreamt i was in Singapore with 2 of my friends from Perth. I was in starbucks buying a mocha frappachino..which i miss sooo much haha! Then i saw darren, but he was shorter than me...weird huh? yea well...a dream i was in singapore...mum said i could back on the next flight but that means i cant go back in dec...i chose to dec...

just heard the song "someday we'll know". sam, chee wei, thank you. im sure nat knows what i mean...

ok yes im in a sentimental mood today...sitting at home watching movies, the crying kind....haha i cant help it, its the perfect weather!

oh and watch madagascar!!! its sooooo funny! watched it yesterday with esther...hahah thats a funny movie!

2005-06-23T20:04:00.000+08:00

hello people...miss me?? haha! yea so anyway..exams are over!!!!!!! ive finished an entire semester of my university life!!!! it feels so weird..like times flown by so fast! one semster gone just like that! exams gone just like that!!!! and now ive got nothing to do but sit on my ass for 3 weeks, get smashed, party and shop! but yea ive also been away from singapore for close to half a year...wow....

moving on swiflty (quote stolen from AJ lol)...

so yea my tummy feels funny and im mega sleepy....reason? you guessed it...too much alcohol for my own good last night! i didnt even drink as much...i mean i think my tolerance fell cos i took the break cos of exams...lets see, i had 2 smirnoff double blacks, 2 carltons(beer) and a tequila shot...that was it!!! whats wrong with me!! haha anyway...blew 40 bucks last night!!! plus the 70 bucks i spent when i went shopping earlier in the day yesterday!

ok im not an alcoholic but i cant help it...uni life is made for just partying...dont even care if i can pass my units and i didnt study!!! exams end on mon and im out at good ol steves (a pub on broadway) on wednesday and then after that to margeaux...obviously i couldnt get my folks to pick me up when im so hammered so i stayed over with darling nadia...but i felt so bad cos i told xenobia, natalie and andrea i was gonna go out with them but like after hanging out for 15 mins i bailed and went off with nadia, michelle, kevin, etc...oh well...one good thing tho, i met up with diana and tamerine at steves..havent seen them in ages!! gonna go out with them next week or maybe even this fri..

ok this friday i got a choice between AJs house for drinks and playing silly drinking games and looking for oriens belt (haha yes gehe you know what i mean lol)..ok basically the last time i was at AJs house party gehe and i got really smashed and started looking for oriens belt but we couldnt find it!!! ok yea inside joke...moving on!!! yea the other option is the solid gold tav disco party.....which one??? hmmmmm....

ok so yea whats the point of me blogging all this? paints a bad image of me...and like why would you be bothered to read it when thers nothing substantial in here anyway!!! lala ok lost my mind!

oh and ais!!! your in melbourne????? thanks for telling me babe haha!!

oh and how was the council bbq guys??? for the ltc...

2005-06-07T12:14:00.000+08:00

i just realised that i forgot to blog about something highly important! ok so yea its the second blog of the day and i should be studying but yea whatever!!

yea ok so like last thursday right...6 days after my brother go this driving licence, we crashed!!! hahaha!!! yea so this is what i happened...we decided to go for a drive at night cos we were bored! so we drove to gateways which isnt that far away and on the freeway seans like speeding and blasting the music with his new 500 dollar sound system! on the way back home tho...sean starts messing around haha like foot on the accelerator as well as on the brake so like the back tire is spinning and then we suddenly jerk off at god knows what speed! as we approach the bend the idiot attempts to drift and he sorta makes it but then on the nex turn he completely misjudges it, the road is wet so he loses control of the car and we get side swiped into bushes just missin the tree by inches! i was on the driver side which is the side where we skidded off into the bushes and all our windows were open! so we had branches coming into the car and like thank god i convered my face or id be pretty scartched up!

yea so damage to passengers, that is sean, simon and myself is zero. but damage to the car....the side mirror on the driver side broke off, the side indicator is also ripped off, the rubber surrounding the back rear window is sorta pulled off, the drivers window cant go up and down co sits wrecked and the car is so badly scratched down the drivers side...apart from that it looked brand new! so cost of damages haha, about 2 grand or so!

so we call my parents and oh man dow e get yelled at but we make up this story about how we were speeding and blah blah balh and they are just happy we're alive and unhurt! but oh my god how fun was that...always wanted to be in a crash butlike not get hurt! stupid brother! but haha he gets to start driving again soon and like he still gets the camry! not fair!

so yea theres a new rule about getting your licence now and instead of havig to drive 25hrs before gettin it you have to drive 150hrs!!! and plus, after you get your P plates, no nght driving and no driving with peers in the car!! and you gotta keep yur Ps for 3 years instead of 2!!! so sean doenst get affected by it since he already has his!! i on teh otehr hand ave to get my ass in a car start driving so i get my licence before the new rule sets in!!! and eve worse, iw anna get a manual licence so its gonna be harder! oh well....

2005-06-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

man i really shouldnt blog when im drunk or the next morning when i cant type straight!!!! yea so again, im so sorry you guys haha!

neway.......i cant get over something and i know i should and like its so silly even thinking about it cos like theres just nothing that can be done! oh well...i mena like it happened 3 days ago and usually i dont care about these things but this time it was different! yet i cant help but smile about it! only one thing haunts me about it and its a song!!! nat why arent you online now! hmph!

2005-06-04T07:39:00.000+08:00

note to self, do not blog when drunk and in the middle of thine night. why whouldnt i? well its simple thats cos im honest. sorry for all you guys who had to read the post!i should delete it but oh well....now i can just be totally humiliated!

2005-06-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

i am drunk. i am on the phone with natasha budhrani and i am drunk. i have just got back from a party at murdoch. it was fucking awesome. and have i mentioned that i am drunk. wait i have already said that! i think i drank too much. i didnt study. my exams is exactly 7 days away. i am drunk and i have not studied. it is amazing how i a m able to type. my friend natatsha is laughing at me as i type this. as you can see i am really drunk. she is tsill laughing at me. i woke her up. she did not osme with me., i went with nadia and michelle and brad. and then, i met a whole lot of random people there! you guys in spore wouldnt know who they are cos you dont live in perth! ok then i shall go sleep now. goodbye and hope you get drunk soon cos its a fucking awesome feeling! bye bye and miss you!

2005-05-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

im really bored cos its a saturday night and im not out. not use to it. i should be studying since my exams are in 2 freaking weeks. but no. im not. brilliant.

so....whats new you may ask? well frankly, nothing. life has indeed become boring. i go to uni, i hang out a bit, i come home. and i do this over and over again. it just aint the same as singapore where you can go to anyone of the numerous malls. and like friends are more acquaintances. long story about that. but yes, i know it takes time. and im already lucky to have at least 3 really good friends here.

friends in singapore, i love you guys. miss you lots. thank you sooo much to those who wrote in that little notebook for me! it really meant a lot. its a source of comfort. especially when i know its gonna be about 6 months till i get back. i kinda wonder if things will be the same. will groups of friends still exist. i sure hope they will.

and why is it that no matter what, certain people or certain things or situations or memories or whatever refuse to leave you no matter what. and it'll always be in the back of your head. and even if you try to forget, something happens to remind you.

why is it that sometimes, no matter how close you may be to a person, you just have nothing to say to them? weird aint it this little world we live in.

moving on.....to my wonderful classmates from KC, im so sorry i cant make the reunion but hey yaya said theres gonna be another one for when i get back! love all you guys and cant wait to see you! and in case you forgot how i look like haha, i bumped into nora at rise last week so she'll tell ya i look exactly the same! ok maybe a bit fatter but hey haha!!

2005-05-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

yea so im finally blogging....i really dunno what tos ay i mean like a lot has happened but like i cbf to type it up.....kinda miss you guys in singapore like A LOT recently....not too sure why...oh well....got accepted in NUS...yay i guess lol! its kinda good but bad cos like now my mums threatening to send me to uni in singapore cos apparently ive been goin out too much as usual and turning into some kinda weird ass wild girl!! oh puh-lease.....im not gonna justify myself!
hmmm i think ive become more indian since coming to perth....just went ofr RDB night on friday....drank a bit too much haha but met up with soo many of my friends there and i realised all my indian friends are GUYS! but its cool cos they were lookin out for me the whole night and bought me drinks lol!
saw this guy who is like the head bouncer at metros....hehehe.....im thinkin free entry and like underaged friends...lol! and no queueing!!
oh yea im sorry i havent written back neeta and kit...really sorry! will do as soon as possible!!!
oh and kit darling can i have my DVDs back pls especially khabi khushi...my dads in singapore till the end of the week in case you wanna pass it to him!
ok i miss you guys lots!!! love ya!!!

2005-05-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

SHUHUI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so sorry i didnt get a chance to call you on your birthday last friday! but yea, HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha we are now the same age!!!! miss ya gal and take care!!!!!! and thank you sooo much for the tagboard notice! good to know your still keeping in touch haha!

and Happy Birthday sam!! hope you had a great day today and spent it well with the rest of the guys!

2005-04-23T11:12:00.000+08:00

yes yes i know its been a long time and you are all dying to here whats new in my life!!!! hahah nah just kidding!
well i finally have some time....actually im suppose to be doing my pyschology lab report but honestly i cant be screwed! hahah
hmmm so lets see...alot has happened but like i dunno where to start hmm...oh yea last saturday as usual i went clubbing and i went to 5 clubs! got back to my friends place at like 6am!!! it was one of those random nights lol and well the details will be told over the phone cos frankly im too lazy to type it all down!
oh ya and then on wed was prosh! basically we all dress up in stupid clothes tryin to sell this politically incorrect newspaper uwa wrote to raise money for leukemia foundation! sooooo much fun!!!! u guys have to see the photos haha! that was the best!!!!!
so yea uni goes on as usual...checkin out guys, goin for class, slackin, checkin out guys.........lol!!! oh yea i didnt do thatw ell on my anthropology and economics essay!!!! sob sob! for anthrop i only got 73% and economics 72.5%!!!! oh no.......i better actually start studyin!!!
my parenst think ive been partying to omuch...just cos ive been goin out on wed and sat nights for the past few weeks doenst mean that A LOT of partyin....i mean i study too...sorta!
yea well, goin out tonight haha...some bollywood night and then going to metros after...hope its enjoyable..but like its only my friend and i going... hope she can get more ppl to go....especially cos its northbridge, its kinda dodgy!
oh well i know theres more to say but i cant really think of it now...so yea....call me people im sick of having to always call singapore haha!!!!

2005-04-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

hello hello all u wonderful people reading haha!!!! ok as you can se eim in a relatively good mood! u noe why???? cos my bed finally arrived from singapore!!!!! my room is actually beginning to look like a room! yippee! and all my furniture is here! woo hoo!!!!!!

oh damn uni starts on monday......crap! oh yea went clubbing again on wed haha! was waiting in the queue forever and freezing my ass off cos its like freaking 10 degrees here leading up to winter!!!! i spent all my allowance for the month yesterday on winter clothes hehehehe!!!! oh darn i still otta buy either knee high leather boots, cowboy boots or this other suede one..hmmmmmm! maybe i'll buy 2 out of thr 3 instead of only one hahaha!

ok i have nth to type abt cos nth really interesting happened and my hands are so cold! oh ya.....kishan have u like died or smth i never see you online and only see jer...not that im complaining abt jers company haha!

oh and thank you guys for the emails!! haha u noe who u are!

betrayal and friendship

2005-03-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

i just read a blog entry which really hurt me. i mean..i thought we were friends but oh well i guess not. im not like jealous but like...the three of us were friends so the LEAST you could do is mention me too right? like ok not sending me to the airport, no problem. not calling, no problem. not mentioning anything anywhere, no problem. not emailing, no problem. but now this...you really are the most cold hearted person ive ever known. seriously, dont you think it hurts? people whom i thought werent that close to me are in fact better friends than you are or ever will be. its like all i have to do is read your blog and like my entire mood changes. i dunno why im so affected but i am cos i really did think we were relatively good friends. i dont trust many people and people like nurul for example know i gotta huge issue with trusting people and friendship. i trusted you and just like previous friends who have hurt me, you did it too.

so who am i talking about? isnt it obvious, samantha tan.

to nurul, thanks for keeping in touch via email! in means alot! i may be busy with new friends and things but still, i wanna hear that i still have friends back in singapore if not, when i return i wouldnt have anyone to go meet!

to my other fiends, im sorry i havent really been in touch or online but missing you guys like crazy and i wish i could come back! but hey nat, when you get back to singapore give everyone a hug for me! miss ya lots too nat!! so jer, give nat a hug for me!

2005-03-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

its been a while hasnt it...bet most of you dont even check my blog anymore cos its been ages...before the stupid a levels were released! special shou tout to masita who i heard was looking for me online some time ago! i miss ya too gal!

anyway, as you guys may know, i didnt do well at all on my stupid a levels..i got
C- lit
C- geog
B- economics ( the one grade im soooo proud of!)
B3- gp
so yea, i couldnt do law anymore but i was still eligible to continue my arts degee so now im doing my bachelor of arts degree at UWA which i sthe BEST uni in the world i might add and im having the time if my life. so the units im taking is Psychology, Anthropology, Philosophy and Economics! its sooo great haha! so i got a few options about doing a law degree, option one, is i do REALLy well this year and transfer to law next year, and option two, is i complete my arts degree and do a double major in psychology and economics in it and then as a graduate student after i finish my arts degree do graduate law...im leaning towards option 2 cos then that way i can have a double major in arts and then get a law degree on top of that so id like have tons of job opportunities! so yea, thats the plan!

so moving on from the boring stuff...lifes been good, ive gotten better at driving and ive been clubbing alot...i just went out on thursday to MAMBO which was a singapore society organised evnt my friends invited me for and yea, it was pretty good cos like the bottom floor of the club was retro music and the top floor was rnb! they had one of the zouk dj's there as well! then on friday iw ent for masala mix at another club and like it was filled with indians haha..i actually recognised some of the hindi songs lol! and oh ya, indian guys here are hotter than those in spore although some are really rank! so yea by saturday, i had a hangover..ooops! serves me right for goin clubbing 2 days in a row! but i cant help it if ppl wanna buy my friends and i drinks haha!

so yea i kinda wasted my weekend just slacking instead of catching up on the readings i gotta do! argh im so completely dead! i got so much to read....before logging on i was reading philosophy- darwins theories....kinda interesting actually! alot of self- study involved in uni life so be prepared ppl!!

oh ya! people keep asking me who my boyfriend is co sthey heard i had a boyfriend...so o set the record straight, i don have a bf!!!!! haha....i never did...you guys in spore have lost your mind if ya think d get a bf that quickly here! i may be in the land of hot guys but im also in the land of hot girls, mini skirts and competition haha!!!

oh god, i sound like a really boring person!! oh no.....i really m not but like you guys have to be here for me to show you how fun it all is! i miss you guys so much and is so hard to catch up with stuff cos im so busy and all these days! someone call me!!! haha!

i feel so old in uni here and like im afraid that the guys i like are like younger than me and stuff....oh my god there is this one guy who is sooo hot and i see him at every economics lectures i go for!! wheeeeeee haha!

oh and neeta, i do NOT have an accent or slang oranything now...i still sound like the same old cassie!!

ok ppl i shall cease to bore you with my life and hey email me if ya want and i'll fill ya in on details on guys and stuff hahahah! jus kidding! but damn lectures are never boring with so much eye candy around!

2005-03-02T14:33:00.000+08:00

i am so scared.
stop telling me i'll do well.
i took the exam.
i know i screwed up.
i know how little i studied.
im hoping god hears my prayers.
i need help.
im praying.
im scraed.
so scared.
i hear neeta, kit, shuhui calling me and saying they have bad news.
i want my imagination to be wrong.
im praying hard.
i also hear them saying they got great news. but i dunno.
help.
GOD

om nama sivaya namaha

2005-02-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

ok so first things first!! FRIDAY!!!!! A LEVELS!!!! OH FUCK!!!!! pardon the language! im so scared co si don wanna be kicked out of UWA cos it is the best uni in the world! and i donw annahave tod rop law!!!! pray for me people, as i will pray for you!! im so freaking scared its nto even funny! theres this law picnic/ lw camp i wanna sign up for but its a 100 bucks and what if i cant stay in law...knock on wood! so what do i do!!

i really wanna go or the law camp cos like one night is theme party where everyone dresses up as old school sprots and lie the other night is a toga traffic light party!!! and there will be sooo many hot guys!!!

anyway i shall not htink about the future and tell you all about the parties i mentioned in my previous post haha!

so like the fist night we went to the red sea club which is such a great joint and like the club is sick(thats aussie slang for cool) haha! its like so great tho drinks in the club are really ex, cover charge is cheap. so just go to the liquer store get high then go in haha! anyway, guys are hot here!! i didnt even have to dress up really well and put make up!!! like nobody cares and guys are hot! ok i already said that haha!! anyway we stayed up really late and iw ent back to my friends dorm!

the next day was a traffic light party! for those of you who have no idea hwat it is, basicaly, if your single you wear green, yellow if ya wanna leave ppl guessing and red if your taken! so obviously i wore GREEN!!!!! haha and man is that good!!!! like cos ppl know your single and you know others are so like its easy to approach people! this party was in our campus bar called the Tavern! its so cool we have a bar/mini club/hang out on campus!!!! it was GREAt fun!!! another late night and stayed at my friends dorm!!!!

the social life here is great adn teh guys are hot!! haha ok ya i keep repeating that!!! like singapore is such a waste of time to look for hotties in clubs!!! lol

so this fri theres a hawaiian themed over 18 drinking party for the law fac!!! i might go but theres also a psychology bbq...gotta find ppl to go with first!!! maybe cn drag non-law ppl to it cos hey, theres drinking!!!! i actually drink beer here cos there are so many diff types! and then on sunday is players ball but not sure if mum will let me go since there is class on mon! hmmmm

i joined so many clubs, like dance club andblackstone and like ALOT!!! there are even clubs you can join where all they do is go drining ever week and like most clubs you join give discounts at all the clubs! its so awesome here!!! and we call our lecturers by first names!!

today i had my psych lectw hich was funny, had philosophy whochw as boring but i think it'll get better and had creative writing which looks promising! i had law as well!!! i have a busy timetable, taking a double degree haha! but its all good!

i have so many thing to tell you guys in singapore!!!! you guys have t come down cos liek the campus is georgeous andthe city is great shopping and ppl are great and social life is off the moon! it is so sick!!! I LOVE IT HERE! i just hope i don have to leave! fingers crossed and praying! pray for me!!!! argh so scray!!

nat rmb i told ya about some situation, the chant thing, well its more complicated!!! and neeta, who to choose! argh!!!!! nat! neeta!!! haha!

oh and by the way kit im sending ya the authorisation letter but i havent had time to write you a proper letter, sorry!

2005-02-27T09:35:00.001+08:00

heya ppl! its been a while hasnt it!!! im currently in my friends dorm using the internet cos we both were all up partying last night! well actually its bee 2 nights in a row and i stayed over here so i don have parents to go home to haha!! this is the life!! its a good thing the uni hands out free condoms cos ppl are hooking up left right and centre! damn dorm rooms rock!!! hmm there is so mu7ch to say!!! oh and i am NOT popular, no idea what nat is talking about!!!

there are so many hot guys here im like in heaven literally! like going to a club is so awesome cos for once there are hot guys!! haha i found a clubbing buddy!! this is so awesome! i gotta take lots of pics! you guys have to come and visit me so i can sho wyou around he city and my campus!!! its so nice here!!!! argh...ok i shall talk about it next time haha!

oh my friend just walked in haha guess i should stop for now to be continued later!!!!

2005-02-27T09:35:00.000+08:00

heya ppl! its been a while hasnt it!!! im currently in my friends dorm using the internet cos we both were all up partying last night! well actually its bee 2 nights in a row and i stayed over here so i don have parents to go home to haha!! this is the life!! its a good thing the uni hands out free condoms cos ppl are hooking up left right and centre! damn dorm rooms rock!!! hmm there is so mu7ch to say!!! oh and i am NOT popular, no idea what nat is talking about!!!

there are so many hot guys here im like in heaven literally! like going to a club is so awesome cos for once there are hot guys!! haha i found a clubbing buddy!! this is so awesome! i gotta take lots of pics! you guys have to come and visit me so i can sho wyou around he city and my campus!!! its so nice here!!!! argh...ok i shall talk about it next time haha!

oh my firned just walked in haha guess i should stop for now to be continued later!!!!

2005-02-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

so i had decided to stop blogging. as in no more blog. but, i felt i owed it to my dedicated readers to amuse them with happenings of my silly life haha!

tomoro i start uni....and i think i have found the perfect outfit with the help of fernando of course! so people, wish me luck!

oh ya happy birthday fernandino!!!! hehe

ok so im so nervous i dunno what bag to bring to uni!!! oh ya i have my laptop already!!!!! this is gonna be sooo cool! ironically enough, on fri they played Legally Blond on tv...haha perfect dont you think?

i still havnet driven again after that last time and i dont think sean will get into a car with me again hehe!

i really have nothing to blog about but no worries, i shall have tons to share after i get a life!!! yay!!

do you think i'll pick up an accent? i hope not....haha if not i'll sound funny and neeta will hit me! argh....ok haha

2005-02-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

I DROVE I DROVE! I DROVE I DROVE I DROVE!!!!! Do you here me? I DROVE!

haha ok...so ya, i finally drove! and i didnt crash! sure i scared my dad and bro when i almost hit a curb and when i swerved haha! but hey, i drove! and im not THAT bad...i just need practice! tons and tons of practice!

see, my only problem is, im not good at the whole checking the mirrors thing every 10 secs and also driving in a straight line and not freaking out when a car is behind me or anywhere near me! heheehe...........i cant believe i drove! wheeeeeeeeee

FINALLY something interesting in my extremely boring life! today is the my 3 week anniversary in perth! in 2 weeks, uni is going to start!!!! whooopeeee!

2005-02-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

ok people so let me give ya the 411 on australia and the people here cos ive realised, i havent done that yet!

1. Macdonalds isnt called "Mac" for short, its called "Mackers"...
2. Burger King, is known as Hungry Jacks...
3. Australia, really is the land of sand and gravel! no kidding!
4. Guys are relatively HOT!! hehe
5. YOUR suppose to invite yourself to parties, dont wait for an invite, cos it wont come!
6. You guys in singapore thought my skirts were SHORT, well...come on down to Western Australia...now i have to shorten my skirt even more! haha
7. Days can reach to temperatures of 38 degrees and nights can be as low as 13 degrees!
8. No one really wears heels here, its mainly flip-flops so you'll hardly see aussie girls and guys dressing up to go to town...

Ok people, thatw as my very boring blog post on aussie life..you know why its boring? simple. cos im boring! haha but just you wait till i start uni and can drive!!!! yay!

my first driving lesson with my dad is on sat! i hope im a natural driver! wait, i am a natural driver!

so today, i went to the mall and like evrywhere you turn you see at least one decent looking guy which in singapore would be considered hot haha. ok thats all that has happened in boring life. bye bye ppl

2005-02-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

the feeling just comes and goes. one minute your perfectly fine and the next all you can do is sit around and be depressed. it really doesnt get any easier. sitting here chattin to people on msn hasnt cheered me up at all. instead, i feel more detached than ever to people back home. ive sorta drifted away from all of them. you know what the worse thing is? it hasnt even been a month.

2005-02-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

ok ok so i havent been updating my blog so sue me! haha...after all the complaints, i guess nats reminder i had a blog today finally forced me into blogging!

soooo....what has happened thats blog worthy? nothing. thats right, nothing. why you may ask....simple, i have no life haha! yes, cassie andrews has no life. she doesnt go out, she doesnt do anything fun. oh wait, she cooks, she cleans the house, she makes sure everything is in order and well, thats about it! haha.....

but i am proud of myself! i learnt how to use a washing machine! and i hang up the laundry to dry! i take it down! i fold clothes! i sweep! i mop! i dust! and i cook!!! ive cooked...rogan josh, chocolate fudge, fish and chips, stir-fried vegies and on wed im gonna cook prawns with dried chilli and begadel!

ok so to most of you, you must think im completely mad to find all this interesting but after having a maid my whole life its rather refreshing...oh ya and i cleaned the toilet bowl today with that harpic duck thingy! haha so im proud of myself but i wanna go back to my life of shopping and clubbing and going out! haha...i will not become a housewife! no way!

oh ya i do have something interesting! i have my L plate driving license! that basically means, i can drive as long as i have any person who holds a valid license in the front seat! hehe...watch out world, here i come! sooner or later i'll get my P plate and then i can drive drive drive! yippee!

oh oh oh and today while i was waiting to take my test, which i got 28/30 by the way haha, i saw the HOTTEST guy ever! if ya watch manhunt, you should know who kevin peake is(the spy), anyway...kevin peake is like so hot and today i saw LIVE in PERSON someone who looks just as hot as him! and he was in perth and he was at the licensing centre so somewhere in perth theres this really hot guy! ok there are other guys who are cute but this guy is the hottest one so far! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!

so uni starts in 15 days! i cant wait im soooooooo nervos! arghhhhh haha!

oh and guys, i still miss ya all A LOT! come visit me! especially the single girls haha cos take your pick in aus! hehe

2005-01-31T15:47:00.000+08:00

i just watched a walk to remember for like the millionth time and m so in love with that movie! and i heard the Someday We'll Know song...and...it brings back so many good memories...the first is when sam and chee wei sang it to nat and i and second is when i forced someone else to sing it haha!

oh someone on my msn has the nick "nobody's perfect until you fall in love with them"! like oh my god.....what a beautiful beautiful thing to say...ok im experiencing this mixture of emotions..im kinda sad at stuff but at the same time so completely happy cos after a movie like that, you kinda think that maybe there is a one true love in this world....makes you all warm and fuzzy.

so today hasnt been all that bad a day..i think i like being alone cos i get to do whatever i want and just be by myself for a while...when i said i was lonely before it was different cos altho i still had sean here i was alone. it was a different type of alone..you know what i mean? oh well nvm haha..

2005-01-31T08:13:00.000+08:00

im awake at 8 in the morning cos the stupid sun rises at 5! just great..i was hoping to sleep my time away cos there really is nothing to do here at all. sean has gone to school and dads at work so im stuck here in this house. i cant even go out for a run cos i don have the house keys. when i get the house keys all i can do is jog around the area and thats it.....there arent any buses around to bring me to the city. those of you laughing at me now, dont.

its not easy being here although i keep sayin im fine. i realised that life in singapore goes on, exactly what nat told me when she left. but you know what? people actually missed her...now i dont want people coming to me and sayin they miss me after they read this cos frankly its way tooooo plastic. and im sorry i keep comparing myself to nat, its just cos shes the only one in the same shoes...

everyone back in singapore is working or something and it seems only kit finds time to email, so thanks kit it means alot! the only other person is nat...think i would die if i couldnt pour my heart out to her. im still upset about a friend and it just goes to show that one should never take a picture of 3 people. now dont say im superstitious cos thats what the other 2 said and so we took the pictures, the 3 of us...and look what happened. the picture i brought down all the way from spore in my bag, now sits in my room and i am forced to look at it but i think i shall put it away in a corner and let that be that.

i hate to admit it, but my mum was right. when i left, friendships will be lost cos they werent that strong and i will have to make a ton of new friends. i want her to be wrong, i really do.

i HATE ns! it deprives us from picking up the phone and calling anytime we want. i bought my calling card but i think it may have been a waste of 30 bucks cos i don have anyone to call...kinda pathetic arent i? lol

had a fight with that idiot brother and this was a serious one, not just some silly quarrel we usually have..he said i didnt have any friends and the friends i do have probably don like me very much. i think hes right. he said alot more stuff buti don wanna think about it. wish my mum was here at least.

2005-01-29T18:04:00.000+08:00

heya people! nat and i need a favour...since the two of us are miles away from you guys in singapore we figured we could send ya random smses online! so nats brilliant idea(see i mentioned you nat haha like you told me too), is that you guys email us or smth to let us know if your starhub, singtel or M1 so we can sms ya from online! good idea right! surprising it came from fernando..haha anyway, let us know ok!! miss you guys!

2005-01-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

so this time last week i was back home in spore..but now this is home. i gotta admit this sucks. at about 2.20 i looked at the clock i thought to myself that this itme last week i was in spore with someone else. and now its about 3.15 and i was with all my friends. yet here i am now alone although i have my bro and dad. its just different you know? waiting for wed, 10pm.

2005-01-26T17:38:00.000+08:00

im just gonna come out and say it...sam it really does hurt that you didnt even bother to send me off. the least i expected was perhaps an email to explain yourself or say sorry or something! you didnt even do that! i really thought you were an extremely close firend but i see i was wrong..you've always been closer to nat and i don mind and i know how you kept going on and on on your blog bout how much you miss her. this time with me, not even a single word..oh ya wait except that your an asshole and your sorry! wow i really see that you miss our close friendship! it hurts sam. it hurts alot. i gave you time to spend with von and didnt sms you or anything my last day here eventhough you promised we would hang out and when it came down to it, you didnt even come to the airport followed by no email or any form of contact. i am sooo mad at you sam but im more hurt..i hope kishan passes you the letter i wrote cos i only wrote for 3 ppl and you were one of them. i see i wasted my time.

2005-01-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

its lonely here...but at least i got sean and i think being thrown together like this and knowing what each other is goin through is bringing us closer and closer.

i do miss you. wish i could call ya everyday.

nat, parallel lives...lol, life is sick aint it?

2005-01-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

hi hi people this is my first posting coming to you direct from down under!!! so ive unpacked all my stuff but haha too lazy to put it nicely in the closet hehe! my bro and dad have been showing me around and its kinda cool but its still not singapore!

i miss you guys so very much! my mum said that whoever could be bothered to come to the airport will be a reflection of who my true friends are and now i know. so to nurul ,jaren, nat(through a phone call), neeta, zhen yi, kishan, jeremy, shafi, chee wei, kit, naweera, ais, yajun, esther, farhan, mansi, shuhui(phone call), sarah(phone call), shah(phone call),..thank you from the bottom of my heart! oh if i left out anyone im sorry but i dont think i did. although some of you couldnt be there at least you guys called and that meant the world to me! and thx isk for the email!

special mention to dearest ais who rushed down to see me! i saw you through the glass and only wished i could have given ya a hug! but i was late already..im sorry gal! love ya!

oh and all the gifts! thank you so much! and ive read all the notes you guys gave me a thousand times! i miss you guys alot alot alot! i shall try my best to email you guys soon and snail mail ya'll! hope to catch ya all online!

to you who said you'd come but didnt..no phone call or sms my last day in singapore, a silly sms sayin you couldn come and how sorry you are..i have nothing to say to you. i hope your time spent with him was worth it cos he will book out again but me, im gone for good. i thought our friendship was stronger than that. at least a phone call and proper explanation why you couldnt come would be nice. if nothing else had caused me to cry, you not coming would have done the job well. it WAS a great friendship but i guess some things are far too damn important than sending your supposedly good friend off, even coming for 15 min was too much to ask huh? i think you should know who you are.

to end on a lighter note! to all my friends who i know deep down care for me! i love ya guys soooooo much! thank you for the memories and friendship!

ps. ive gotten so use to hearing your voice every night, i cant sleep. i miss you. but nothing more can be.

keep in touch ppl!!!! hahahaha

2005-01-22T13:29:00.000+08:00

ok people this is my last blog post from singapore...in like a few minutes im be leaving for the airport...im not gonna lie, i feel like crap and i told myself not to cry but oh well, who knows..so this is it people..goodbye.

catch ya from australia! miss me ok haha! don you guys dare forget me!!! love you guys!

bored

2005-01-16T16:04:00.000+08:00

i am soooo bored....help help help! save me from boredom!! i wanna go out but nooo i cant cos my uncle and grandma are visiting since darling sean andrews is going back to australia tomoro!!! its so good to hear hes goin away but haha for me, i get to see him again on sat!! wonderful! ok im bored im bored and *gasp* they are watchin TAMIL movie! help..........its so nice to see my uncle cos hes like the best but i cant help being bored...i kinda ran out of things to talk about with him after he got married..guess i shall go back to the boredom!

mixed emotions

2005-01-16T13:04:00.000+08:00

EVERYONE is sayin the same thing, they dont believe me. yes i know ive said it so many times before, that i never wanna drink ever again and yes new year was suppose to be the last time but..i really do mean it this time. yes, i will obviously drink again but not to the extent where i cant even control myself. this time i actually saw my own friend pass out on me and i was sooo scared...don want that to happen to me. so believe me or dont believe me, i dont care but i know that things are gonna be different when i go to australia.

so anyway, things are just different now for some reason...cant really explain it but i guess its cos im leaving and ive faced up to that reality.

i am in the worse mood right now.

cant wait for the 21st..like jer said, we can hang out like old times for one last time!! i just gonna think how im gonna split my time with different grps of people.

oh and to this certain someone, haha...you are such a loser and you got what you deserved!

2005-01-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

i really dunno whether to feel happy or sad..got nothing to do now so got lotsa time to think...talkin to nat and waiting for nurul and sam to come over..i hope his mum wont be there so like i can hug him and stuff...i seem to be bloggin alot now and its all about the same thing! haha

2005-01-10T13:40:00.000+08:00

i wanna call you...wanna have the ability to call anytime i want..want to sms and get an immediate response! you know how much i treasure those few minutes we talk on the phone. when i finally do leave its gonna be so painful, leavin you AND leavin all my friends..things will never be the same between us! god i miss you so much! i sound psychotic dont i? haha...

ok so update on my life!! my dumbass borther broke is finger 16days ago but only now does he go to the hospital..he thought he was all fine!! what an idiot! haha..

lets see..went out with my mum yesterday, i LOVE hangin out with my mummy! we went for steamboat dinner after shoppin and it was sooo much fun!!

packin my room up today with my mum, if not i wold have asked sam to come along and help but at least we get to hang out tomoro! she's comin about 3 but you know what sammie...we should spend more time together so maybe we can meet up for lunch first or something! btw, i am a phonecall away and you can trust nat and i as well..we're here for you! hope your holdin up ok..i know its hard, been there, done that.

so wed moring till afternoon will be with nurul then at night i take my maid out to dinner! its her birthday! hehe..

then thurs, oh ya im hangin with neeta and dinner with shuhui and kit! well thats the plan but dunno how it'll turn out!

more to my plannin but i cant say!!! haha..oopppsss

2005-01-10T01:22:00.000+08:00

ok so went for retail therapy today..bought new clothes! i am soo happy but oh so sad..watched this stupid love story on tv...feel absolutle crappy now! thank god i got sam around and thank god i got nat on email!

2005-01-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

you've already gone and im still checkin your blog. i get an sms..i think it may be you. someone comes online, i look to see if its you. but then i stop, i realise, it cant be you, it cant. why? your gone..you've left.

i love nat soo much!!! what would i do without her??!! talked to her today...it was so good to hear her..just when i needed her. i miss her. miss her so much. shes my best friend.

sam smsed me, thanks sam! i really need you now and i know you need me too...so im serious, lets just meet and cry our eyes out..im only a call away...anytime sam, anytime.

mum dragged me out of the house to keep me busy, keep me occupied. yes i was kept busy, but no, i didnt stop thinkin. everywhere i look, i think that..we've been there, we've done that. saw his dad today...he didnt wanna make eye contact with me, i wanted to give a polite smile. apparently my mum always goes to that shop..great huh.

met up with shuhui to go see darren, the last time i see him in a long time. darren, im gonna miss you so so much! although we dont really talk and stuff i do treat you as a very good friend..i wanted to cry sayin bye today haha. thanx for drinks and bernies and thanx for dinner!! i owe you a treat once i get back!

so, we went to the beach..just the place right..i wanted to be alone but wanted to see darren..so i was there with them, if i wasnt i would have broken down and cried. the dedication was so great..oh my god, thank you. the beach, i wanna avoid that place now. stay away from it. i walked home alone from the beach...walked round my estate cos the gate was locked, alone. went up the lift alone. alone. couples everywhere at the beach, i was alone.

you called, thank you. wanted to cry, but cant let you hear me cry. i miss you.

you book out on 20th evening, my mum actually asked me today if i wanted to stay till like the 24th or something today. i said no..but now, i dont know. do i stay, and see you one last time, a proper goodbye. but then, the 14th would make it a clean break. i don noe what to do. i want to see you again but...i dunno. why are we hangin on when we know nothing can be.

i miss you and it hasnt even been one day. it really hit me, im not gonna see you ever again..well if i do, it'll be as friends. thats it. hugs will be different, everything will be different.

2005-01-07T09:09:00.000+08:00

it really was goodbye. and it was so fast. that was it. your gone. soon i will leave too. im home now. cryin so much. waiting and prayin nat will call. why. so much to say..will write a letter.

to dear jeremy, you wont see this until the 21st when you book out..i am so sorry i didnt give you a hug, i didnt even give you a hug from nat oh my god im so sorry about that..i feel so bad (nat pls don be mad im so sorry). it all happened so fast, the 2 of you just boarded the bus. jer, you didnt even say bye or turn back..i should have called out. im sorry jer, i really am. i was in shock i think. it was so fast. im sorry i didnt give you nats hugs jer. im so sorry.oh no im so sorry. bye jer. dont know when i'll see you again. goodbye. your a good friend. and again, im so sorry.

to you. you know what i want to say. wish you were here rite now. need you here. im sorry.

cant let mum see me cryin. waitin for nat. pls call nat. pls call.

you know who you are

2005-01-03T19:08:00.000+08:00

you and i have to talk...todays argument was ridiculous especially since theres 3 days left.

2005-01-02T16:11:00.000+08:00

talkin ot nat now, i really miss her so much its just dumb. ok its not dumb, shes my best friend, i have the right to miss her! ok so im leaving rite and i feel i have so little time left! ihave to finish packing my room but at the same time people keep asking me to go out and i dont wanna say no so igo and nothing gets packed!! soon its gonna be the 14th and i'll start panicking!! i wonder how my last day here will be like...hope its as nice as nats last day! just with friends...although some cant be there. you cant be there. ok gotta go talk to nat now!

sam im glad everything is ok with us...gonna miss you!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

2005-01-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

its 2005! ok so this year is gonna suck if you asked me but i was at the greatest countdown party although i wish i was with my other friends but still we met up later and it was great!!! i drank way too much and also...er nevermind! haha but despite my highness i stayed true..means alot, especially when i know what id usually do in a club...means alot. but hey, so what if it means alot theres no point!!

ok so im leaving on the 14th, at 10am! people i want to be there are not but at least sam will be and a few of the rest, thats what matters!

7th january..hmmm...oh well, have fun guys!!! im gonna miss the two of you so so so so much!!!! and im coming to send you off! sam and me!!! im gonna laugh so much seeing your hair and if i cry then well too bad just deal with it hehe!

alot more to say but this is not the place to say it....but, HAPPY NEW YEAR! or well i hope it'll be a happy new year...2005.

miss ya nat!!!!!

friends

2004-12-31T01:23:00.000+08:00

our friendship is not worth losing over such a small and petty thing...i was pissed cos i felt that it was such a small issue and there was no reason for you to feel even remotely upset or hurt. ignorin me is not the way to handle things with me. so i am sorry for losing my cool but you are my friend...a close friend and it was hurting that it took something so small to come between us. i dont wanna lose this friendship..so ive said my part and its all up to you now. happy new year.

fucked up

2004-12-31T01:01:00.000+08:00

seriously nat why did you have to go..everything is just comin down around me and i have no where to turn! i wanna pick up the phone and call you but i cant! and like im leavin FOREVER and no one gives a fuck..ok so i don blame you im not the greatest friend in the world but hey at least pretend you give a shit! my sec sch friends are practically non-existant, i havent even seen the councillors! the other group..well havent gone out with them and plannig for new year with them is just ridiculous! and now sam is dissing at me...just cos i wanted one day out withkish and jer by myself..is that too much to ask!!! so much for being a close friend huh sam...its like only nat was holding us togetehr..you wont even be upset when i leave would you?. i should have just left the date to leave as the 10th not push it back to the 14th! i envy nat...all her friends cared enough to want to meet and stuff...but now if people want to meet me i know its cos they've read this blog! so screw you people...nat i really wish i could talk to you i am just so stressed out!!! at least i got neeta arnd to complain too....

2004-12-27T14:36:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness...nat!!! went out shopping with jer and kish yest to TOWN!! so you know how girls try and dress up a bit more for town..well they wore these horrible 3/4 pants!! sam and i were tryin to get them to buy like full length pants (jeans..duh!) oh and all they wore were normal t-shirts....hmph! dont they know that girls like when they see a guy has put effort into dressin up a bit!! haha...you have to tell them to do something about it!! nat!!!! miss ya by the way!

it works!!!

2004-12-27T01:08:00.000+08:00

oh my god it works!! well since i havent blogged in forever there's alot to catch up on but honestly, i have no mood at all to blog...

nat left. i miss her so so so much i just wanna call her or sms her but i cant!! so much to say and no words to say it.

i dont want to leave. i leave jan 14 not jan 10th now bythe way...so i have more time with you sam!

2004-12-26T08:08:00.000+08:00

Nat: Genius..there's nothing wrong with your blog. It's just you. As always =p

2004-12-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

Nat: Cassie you're such an airhead. Correction: Vacuum head. I will miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Will kill you for that hijacking incident another time.

perfection

2004-12-17T02:07:00.000+08:00

i never really knew the meaning of the word till tonight...i'll never ever forget it! and a shooting star....what more could i ask for?

leaving

2004-12-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

went to malacca....it was sooo boring!!! remind me never to go on holiday with those people ever again! kit was there too..that was funny. went to jb yesterday cos my mum asked me to keep her and my grandma company....ate from this indian restaurant, the food was soooooooooo good!!!!!!!! yummy! haha...

anyway, i'm like packing up all the stuff from my room...choosing which things will stay in singapore and which will go to aus..reality has really really struck that i really am leaving...leaving all my friends..it kinda sucks. i havent even seen my friends for the past week..i wanna go out with them but i assume that they are all busy and i guess so am i..but i can find time to go out!

nats leaving on tue...gotta go out with her at least once before she leaves! maybe on fri before the non-existant surprise party! haha

my house is a mess! boxes everywhere! my birthday is coming and i dont even care.i dont know if i should have a party or not..and if i do, where should i hold it???? have to go christmas shopping...so many things to do!!! m i wanted to leave on the 4th but realised that thats like only a few weeks a so maybe i'll go on the 10th or something...but then again, whats the point of me hanging around singapore??

leave us alone

2004-12-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

suppose to go for the wedding tomoro....its not that i dont want to go but its just that i'll be so completely EXTRA!!! i dont know anyone there at all except kish and kit..plus there's this other reason but nevermind. so what do i do?? what do i do??? i guess i go and be so left out...great! i think i'll wear the most simple outfit i have...cos i dont know what to wear!! what to wear what to wear!!! oh no..kit and kish are gonna see me being indian!!!! argh!!!!!

so we tell each other everything..you know that and i know that. thats what friends are for. why are things so complicated. guys are so complicated. they say we are complicated but like yea rite. dont worry gal, it'll work out. i noe how u feel!

delayed

2004-12-08T16:30:00.000+08:00

ok so i never really wrote like A levels are over..haha so...its over!!! *lagging* haha....neway, prom was really great! i had such a blast and like gettin ready was so great and the guys were so sweet, they bought the council girls roses!! after prom was like hilarious but i shant go into details!

kit, neeta and shuhui stayed over last night after shuhui and i threw this surprise belated party for kit and neeta!! you should have seen their faces and all neeta did was complain that i didnt warn her so she looked crappy..um neeta..i didnt tell you cos it was a SURPRISE!! haha...but they were so appreciative so all's cool! jeremie-mie, kisha nd jamie came too!

had dinner at mansi's the other day..it was nice and all but it really wasnt my day! i wanted to break down and cry but had to smile..."everything's ok, im just tired" yea rite. i'm such a liar. if i didnt have nat and sam i think id be a mess..thx guys for EVERYTHING! i couldnt enjoy myself and still cant..so im trying to surround myself with people so i dont get a chance to think but guess what...im alone now haha!

so changing topic completely..

i really admire them..i mean after all they've been through they're still friends and she gets to enjoy his company without all the commitment...wish i could have that, but things are just so complicated!! its a damn good thing that my friends know me better than i know myself..dont know who im talkin about? thats ok...the people involved know..i just wanna go out and hang out as friends ya know..thats it..but it just doesnt seem possible! cant say much cos everyone reads this blog and ive already gone into personal things...argh!

council is throwing nat and i a surprise farewell party on fri!! hahahaha!!! thanks sam for tellin us but dont worry, we'll act surprised!! but oh my goodness thank you guys soooo much! its like so sweet! i really am so fortunate to have so many good friends and like i dont wanna get all mushy but i'm gonna miss you guys! its like really hitting me that i'll be leavin all this behind and it doesnt help that nat is leavin so soon! whats gonna happen to the nat, sam and cassie group! ah damn..this is so hard. whats more, i gotta go clear out my stuff from council room...its so final.

times like this ya wanna call people but you cant..just cant, thats why i envy them...why can they do it and i cant?

ps. my blog has gone mad, i cant change the font and the colour!!! and i HATE the skin...gotta find someone to help me change it so its not so...normal! cos hey, im not a normal girl!

~you smile to cover tears~

again

2004-12-03T01:00:00.000+08:00

i didnt put an entry in since A levels ended and the first one wat hijacked by nat and sam! i wanna write more about that and stuff bt perhaps next time. i came onlin to write about prom but i guess next time. why? cos im too upset.

things are suppose to happen...but they dont. i cant say nething here..will just talk to nat now and then neeta tmr. wat wld i do without them? nite.

2004-11-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

ALERT! HIJACKERS!!!

Sam: Nat!

Nat: Sam!!

Sam: Cass!

Nat: haha

Sam: I am beginning to enjoy this.

Nat: Yeah me too...eh look up...hijackers?! WHAT THE HECK?!?!?! run for cover...

Sam: Wait a min....run for cover...that's a song isn't it? Oh by the sugababes!!! Remember! Erm....

Nat: Dunno...were they the ones who dissolved in the rain?

Sam: They are not the polarbabes, nat. Don't be ridiculous. Aiyoh.

Nat:....Hi Sam!

Sam : What la!!!!! Cass looks happy, I'm so happy for her. She looks like she just got married....ooooooo...Cass...

Nat: Married?!?! hey yeah...gee i wonder who she married?!!?!? hmm...i'm thinking...Hugh Heffner! (playboy founder btw)

Sam : Actually, i was thinking of someone else! BUT! Being an upright and morally right human being, i shall refrain from mentioning his name. Muahahahahahaha.

Nat: Argh...Cassie is making so much noise...when will she shut up?? Whining away...

Sam : Yea, like a walrus during their mating season. Gross.

Nat: Woah...violent too...thank goodness she doesnt have tusks...

Sam: We would have been impaled, and roasting like kebabs on the grill. Yummy I love kebabs.

Nat: BBQ walrus...deeeelicious. Hey..where did she go? Heard her say something abt water

Sam: Walrus can swim? I thought they only float, due to buoyancy as a result of the excessive fatty deposits. Boing.

Nat: Those adipose tissues are sure useful for walruses! Great..she's back again...see lah...hit me again...OUCH

Sam : And she wanna go swim with killer whales. Siao. On a suicide mission eh.

Nat: ...

Sam : Kamikaze walrus.

Nat: Should end soon...head hurting from all the beating....gee...walruses are so violent. Worse than great white sharks.

Sam ; My fingers are getting numb. I shld refrain from mawkishness.huh?

Nat: the only reason your fingers are numb is coz you're BANGING THE KEYPAD. Genius. Ok lah..smarter than cassie for sure. She think u can make a parallelogram from erm...Montreal, Spore, Perth and *gasp* Brazil. like...erm OK whatever you say andrews...

Sam: Andrews Saritha Cassandra Elizabeth rite??? HAhahahah I am so clever!

Nat: There are 4! ways of arranging her name!! WOW!!! she thinks we have nothing else to write...oooh what a bad bad bad thing to sayyyyy

Sam: Let me demonstrate to you the wonders of Permutation and Combination. Andrews Cassandra Saritha Elizabeth

Nat: Andrews Elizabeth Saritha Cassandra.

Sam : Andrews Saritha Elizabeth Cassandra.

Nat: Saritha Elizabeth Andrews Cassandra...erm sam? there are like 24 diff combinations...

Sam : Wah!!!! Let her figure out herself la. Unless....she dunno how to permute??? Tsk tsk.

Nat: To her permutation is a perm that went totally wrong.

Sam : Ok! Time to..erm...I can't think of a word

Cass: thanks pple! You guys rock man!!!

im not spoilt, im loved!

2004-11-20T14:39:00.000+08:00

thats my new phrase and soon the whole world will be using it!! haha...anyway, got a letter from murdoch university,i got accepted there too! but im still gonna go to uwa! econs paper sucked cos i didnt finish it, geog the same..didnt finish and lit 8 well...lets just say im pretty much screwed! lit 1 sucked so much too!! seans home! and he brought a friend....murph...hes nice except that he's so quiet he hardly talks at all!! cant wait for it to be over! oh i cut my hair...not much of a difference tho!

this was such a dumbass post.

best friends? hah!

2004-11-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

yes shah, this is to you....i dont deserve what your doing to me. i treated you as a friend. i told you everything. now you turn around and stab me in the back. i never did anything to you to cause you to ignore me and dis me. thats ok. we're both mature. it affected me but its ok now. i know i have other firneds that value friendship. thank you. bye.

dedicated to you!

2004-11-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

i dont apprecite the blog about me. why u reading my blog if im such a bitch. why you so interested in my life. get things straight, she said hi to us, i dindt even know they were going to go ask her. why would i wanna know. i dont care about you or her. so what if your together. so what. so what. i never held anything against you or her. im not a slut. dont know what history you've heard of. got something to tell me, tell it to my face. and your so right, that one night we went out was such a big mistake. im happy im going to aus too. and please stop reading my blog.

what am i doing blogging!!

2004-11-08T13:27:00.000+08:00

had prayers yesterday, leading up to deepavali, and i watched Khabi Kushi Khabi Gham for the first time! yes i noe it came out eons ago...anyway, its so nice!!!! plus hrithik roshan is so hot! hot hot hot! have i mentioned hot?! got prayers again tonight....

studying is NOT going according to plan! im practically screwed! i gotta get AAB or die...got accepted to UWA but they'll throw me out if i don make the grades for a-level!! so i'll be doing law/psychology starting feb 21 until i get my results then we'll see what happens...

good news, im leavin only next yr in jan! ok maybe not so good news for ppl who wanna get rid of me!

math is tomoro..great! thurs deepavali! got friends comin over at night! should be fun! im goin eat so much and put on so much weight! im still a bit sick! hmph!

will miss so many ppl when i go...chee wei said he'll miss my whining all the time and neeta said she'll miss me bitching...hmmm....hey, at least i'll be missed!

purple gum drops and pink ribbons

2004-11-05T15:23:00.000+08:00

im still sick....got worse today! went to the airport to study but had to call my mum to come get me cos i was so cold and tired...stupid flu!!! was suppose to go for the next fitting of my dress but the stupid tailor hasnt altered it yet! oh and was suppose to watch princess diaries 2 with kit but my mum didnt allow..instead i came home and she dragged me grocery shopping for deepavali stuff! her rational for not letting me go for the movie was cos i had to study..like grocery shopping is any better! but but but, im not gonna complain cos although i missed out on what i think would be a wonderful movie (for gals), i got to spend loads of time wit my mum..doing things we used to do togather!! it was great!!

gp was crap, my essay was so ridiculous...didnt finish my aq which by the way, was super easy!! like the easiest ever ever ever done! only myself to blame for not managing my time!

so drowsy now...stupid medicine, stupid flu! god im such a whiner!

spoke to my dad, miss him! its amazing he and bro are getting on so well! they havent killed each other yet! just cant wait when we will all live under the same roof again...think it'll be next year or fingers crossed, dec!

my house is freaking freezing!! i usually love the rain...like when it really pours down..so nice! but now im just cold and sick so cant appreciate this lovely weather!

kit!!! we HAVE to have our day out together after A's! we keep cancelling it!! oh and we're all going ice-skating..basically our usual group..! it was decided on thurs! that out-door rink in town or smth like that! so cool! (no pun intended)

have i mentioned the tequila has arrived..its sitting on my dining table! yummy!

oh and whoever wants to come over on deepavali let me know so i can get my grandma to cook extra food!

~the rain and the flu~

great, just great

2004-11-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

my mums back!!! im so glad!!!! i cant get over that shes here!! went to the airport to study today although i knew noone was comin...but i got cold so i came home and now im sick! just like the gazzilions of ppl im sick!!! damn flu...nats got it too!! get well soon nat! i knew i was goin to be sick yesterday when i got home...crap!

gp is tmr! studied just a bit and then fell aleep...feel so guilty!! im so cold......my house is like a freezer!

nat's leavin 22 nov....thats some good news...but bitter-sweet...

need to study. need to sleep. sick. sick.sick. stupid flu....my head is killing me!

i have the right to complain....im sick.

its times like this when.....nevermind.

smiles outweigh frowns

2004-11-01T07:31:00.000+08:00

ive been completing slacking off from studying! ah well...at least im doing SOME, better than nothing! sat was really great fun, after the airport, we went to the expo! we of course went to study and go for the metro warehouse sale haha!! i didnt wanna go at first but nurul kept smsing me, telling me it was soooo cheap. and guess what, it was so cheap!! the bras...which were really gd quality were like 3 bucks! but they didnt have my size....hmph. (ok ppl dont need to know that...) the clothes were ok i guess, sam bought this cute yellow sleeveless top! oh and we both bought her pair of shoes! yes, i know i dont need another pair of heels but they were so nice and so cheap! ive seen shoes like that before and its like 70 bucks but this was only $20!! so i HAD to buy them! their silver...sam and i got different patterns! haha!

after shopping we went to study..and then it was time for weera to break fast! yummy dinner from bk! we like got it take-away and went to sit on the FLOOR outside the expo hall and sat there till 10 just talking! it was such a great night!

yesterday was even better..after studying at the airport, went to geylang serai! guys wanted to check out suits..oh and haha rmb our secret place we found sam! yippee!! we walked around and like bought all the different types of food at the bazaar! and we sat uner a void deck and ate it all up!! i couldnt walk after....i tried a ramly burger for the first time!! yum yum! gteat company..was telling them, just as we're all getting closer, im leavin.

ok time to complain! went to the tailor and its so bad!! i have no figure...what was i thinking making an outfit like that! and the tailor didnt make the dress low enough...so my idea of showing cleavage is out the window! argh....

off to the airport to study now. picking mum up later!! lalalala happy days!

oh ya!

2004-10-28T23:14:00.000+08:00

on the bus today there wa sthis lady and oh my god it was so gross...she was sitting at the back int he corner and she like spat twice. she jus spat like onto the floor...its a bus for crying out loud! gross!!!!

The OC is such a great show..hmmmm, love it so much!

thats it

2004-10-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

im not gonna discretely say i smoke anymore...too bad, if you dont like it! in an attempt to quit, i threw the entire packet away but right about now i really could use one! its been almost a week since i last had one! yes i broke my promise to some people...im sorry..its a habit i gotta kick. wanna stop deing my friend cos of it? then your not a friend. wanna judge me? your not a friend or someone i wanna know. im tryin to quit..i am..but its REALLY hard. i think its just the stress. i should be good after A's! cos then i can party and wont have a care in the world! im finally admitting it.

had a moving conversation with someone today. started me thinking. im leaving. too bad.

empty

2004-10-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

the house is so quiet and empty..i feel like so alone. yes, my grandparents call but its not the same. my bro is there, my mum, my dad...their all in australia....and im here. its really lonely. so deserted. thought id enjoy the peace. wrong.

mum comin back on sun! smth to look forward to!

still bored

bored

2004-10-25T19:25:00.000+08:00

studying is soooo boring!! and its going so slow.....not much time left!! its next week!! meat is so wonderful to eat! im bored.

2004-10-23T23:24:00.000+08:00

oh my god puh-lease.....how can my site be less evil than kits!!! this will seriously damage the bitch status i have going...

declaration

2004-10-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

ok kishan is so right! indians stare! they just stare!! i mean for crying out loud...have they never seen a human in their life or something!!jus got back from the temple..yes yes im a good little indian girl...anyway, why do they all stare!! ok, especially those like guys...have they never seen a girl brfore!(its not cos they im hot! cos that is so not true!) but ewww...keep your eyes to yourself!!!! i don normally get stared at by indians...but once im in like indian clothes and stuff....they stare!!!

as i am half indian, i have all the right to bitch about my own race without being racist!! why why why!! STOP STARING!!! leave me alone!!!! no, im NOT north indian...no i don look like any bollywood actress....oh by the way, that is the LAMEST pick-up line!!

ggggggggggrrrrrrrrr................

right. anyway. i was sitting there and watchin the indian dancing...and well, i miss it. i never thought id say it but ya...i wish i could pick up where i left off. start doing bhranathyam again..i think thats how its spelt...ya well i wanna learn again! i havent forgotten what i learnt last time! so maybe i can find a place in aus where i can learn!! i really like my indian culture!! like all the outfits and stuff! its so fascinating...now, no one mock me on this!! hmph! haha

so many things ive started but never really completed...i wish i could continue my figure skating...and i know that i really wanna continue my aikido! i know i can still take any guy!! jus wanna get my brown belt and then my black belt...but if i start again, i'll have to start as a white belt! oh and then i have to continue classes on my tennis, gotten sharpen my skills! havent played in a yr i bet i couldnt hit a ball over the net now! i miss playing netball too!! use to play for school in pri school..quit after sec 2 in kc...darn!! you see!! i can never finish what i start!! help, i have an illness!!! haha

submitted my uni application! fingers crossed...i'll know 3 weeks from now! mum back on the 1st!!! a levels is so close...damn! guys got their letters for ns...wish i could be around to send them all off and see them in uniform! gonna miss all my friends...lalala oh well!!! i'll be back to visit! wonder how many people i invite will actually turn up for my bday/ farewell party...will ya miss me??!! haha

1 more day of being vegetarian!!!! then its meat!! i wanna try the salmon burger!! anyone wanna come eat with me???!!!

~off to see the wizard..the wonderful wizard of oz~

tired

2004-10-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

just got back from studying at the airport...took anice warm bath..bad idea, cos now im so sleepy and too lazy to fo any work! my dad has been absolutely non-stop...
slept yesterday at 1230
wake up at 830
econ tuition 930-11
math tuition 1130-1.30
lit lecture 2.15-3.30
travel to airport 3.45-4.45 (dunno why it took so long!)
lunch 4.45-5.15
study 5.15-9

oh my god...the thing is, its not enough studyin! i should be sleepin at like 3 in the morning!!! for cryin out loud its my exams! but no...i sleep...

i shouldnt go for consultations...i havent prepared anything cos im still studyin my stuff, so it'll be a waste of time to for consultation

suppose to write a super long blog describing all my friends and how some turn out to be BITCHES! too lazy...next time...

waiting for 25 nov....shopping, partying, getting high!

~there's hope~